Wow, it's been a while!

Hey guys! Sorry I havent updated in a while. Well lemme think what to say. I got my progress report today and i'm failing Algebra! yay!!!!! And I have an A in History, I had a B before. A B in Acc. English, B in Elective Bible, A in Spanish, A in Chorus, And a C in Bio. Im proud of myself in Bio, I had a D in there on First progress report. How can someone go from a B- to an F in like 5 weeks? Someone please answer that for me. Im not real worried about Algebra though b/c lots of people are failing that class. I like a new guy!!! Xmas! Thats a code name of course. Only 3 people know who he is, well 5 cause God and I know lol. I had a good turkey day! I ate too much but Oh well! I had to put up with my awful family, my mom's brothers. Thats always fun.

Belly Buttons!

aaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! I got my bellybutton pierced!!!!! ahahhhh!!!!! Ok I wasn't suppose to go today but I did anyway b/c I could wait until next saturday! lol! So I was suppose to go with Spurling and I called and she said her mom was going to some wedding and she couldnt go. So she called me back and said she might be able to go she just had to make sure it was ok with her dad. So I was gonna meet her and she was gonna be late anyway, so I went ahead and did mine. So as we were nearing the place I could feel my stomach get nervous go into knots lol. So we got there and the place was how would you say, "not a good atmosphere" lol. The guys had lots of tattoos and piercings, which I expected. I think it would be odd if they didnt have them. So we had to sign some stuff and show my dad's drivers license. So he took me to a backroom down the hall and I sat in a seat. And I asked if it was gonna hurt? and the guy said it would feel like a hard pinch. So I stood up and he put 2 dots for him to see where he would pierce it, and the pen hurt! it was like a permanant pen thing and it was pointy so it kinda hurt. So then he cleaned it with alcohol and I think he said he was gonna like poke it so I would know what it would feel like, and I couldnt see, but I saw him push it in and I didnt feel anything! It didnt hurt at all! And I was in shock, I was like was that it? ANd he goes yep. And I go are u serious???? ANd he put the ring in. Im kinda mad though b/c I couldnt pick my ring! Its just a plain silver hoop with a ball for the closure. I dunno why they didnt have different ones. But as soon as I go to the mall, i'm going to buy a diamond one. I have to wash it 2 or 3 times a day for 2 weeks and I can take it out in a month, but he said the longer I keep it in the better, so I think im gonna wear it for like a month in a half or 2 months. It's kinda bleeding some but not much at all and its kinda sore, but im good. Its worth it! it was only 35$ too! So I got it done and this girl came in and was gonna get hers done, so me and dad talked to her for a few minutes. And we waited for Spurling, so we waited like 10 mins or so and she got there. And her mom was like your both insane lol it was so funny. ANd I showed her and stuff, and she was like scared. But it didnt hurt at all so its no biggie. Im gonna call her and see what she says about it. Well me and Jillian are in love with TEAL! aaahhh!!!! hottness!!!! Next week is homecoming! yay! Monday is tshirt day (homecoming shirt), tuesday is cartoon day, Wed-Group day, thurs-Celebrity (theme), fri-blue and gold day. Im doing monday and friday for sure but im not doing tues and i dont know about the others. Well im gonna go, my bros having his party tonight and I think hes having alot of people come! lol! Bye!

Tongue

Well this week has been pretty funny. Especially yesterday lol. At lunch, me, Hope, and Jillian cracked up all lunch. It was so funny! We were like high! All the sudden Hope starts talking about ******, and when he came over to my house after football practice with my brother and took a shower in my bathroom! lol! We cracked up! He used my shampoo, body wash and sponge! And they thought that was the funniest thing ever b/c i was being gross about dirt and stuff lol. And me and Jillian have a thing for him. Were like in love with him. She asked me if he did something at my house and he did and she like freaked. It was so funny! He looked good doing it too! lol! haha jillian!!!!!!!! hottness.com lol (tongue licks lips! lol!)

I am scared now.

I am very scared. Were going to war and everyone knows it. Were going to strike back, very soon, I know we are. All I have to say is, I don't think they know what they got themselves into. Or for that matter, who they're dealing with. I am an American citizen and always will be, i'm not backing down that easily. I might be scared, but i'm p.o.ed as h**l. I'm not for killing people, but they killed us for no reason and it says in the Bible killing and murder are different and it's not considered killing in war. And were going to war, so were not killing. I hope they find Osama Bin Laden and beat the crap out of him. I hope they torture him and all the people who are happy we lost thousands of lives. That's wrong. I don't want innocent people to die over there, I really dont. I think the people who are happy we got bombed, those helping the ones who bombed us, and the ones who bombed us, should all be killed in battle. They must be pretty mad at us, for them being a small country and all, for them to come over here and kill citizens of the United States of America. We are the strongest nation in the world, and most popular/famous. Only around 9,000-11,000 of our people died, and that was with only 1 attack, and we have about 300 million+ here. They have alot less than that, and 1 attack from us can wipe out their entire country. They don't know what they got themselves into, and there gonna be sorry and there gonna pay. Friday was national prayer/rememberance day in USA. The highschool and middleschool had an assembly in the gym at 2:30 for prayer and singing. After it was over Megan A. was crying. I was so happy for her. I know ure like why are u happy she was crying? i'll tell u why. It is an honor and a privelege to live in and be a citizen in the United States, and I think it finally hit her how she lucky and everyone else is, in this nation. It has not hit me yet how lucky I am and honestly, sometime in the future I think i'm going to breakdown. All of this that has happened, hasnt sunk in yet. And I think it will very soon. So if everyone at school sees that im hysterically crying and cant control myself, they'll know that it sunk in and hit me of all thats happened. War lasts a long time, I might be joining the Navy sooner than I think. God Bless America.

Am I gonna die?

Am I gonna die soon? I know our country is being tested. We were bombed. 4 times today. 2 in New York and 1 time in DC and 1 time in Pennsylvania. Im not gonna give u all the details about today cause Ive heard them 5000 million times. 2 planes flew into the World Trade Center today. 1 hit 1 of them and then another hit the other tower. And they both fell over, crumbled into pieces. Like 10,000 people died. DC was bombed at the Pentagon. A side of it was hit and crumbled down. And then another plane was found 80 miles away from Pittsburgh. President Bush is suppose to speak tonight at 9 about it. Were all scared. We watched it all during 2-4 period. We all got scared when we found out about the pentagon, or at least i was. Its WW3 beginning. We think its the Palestinines. And someone bombed Afghanistan like 45 mins ago! omgosh im scared. And we think there bombing the big cities, and Atlanta is huge. And its only an hour away. Were all praying. Our country needs help. Its in God's hands now.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while.

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I've been busy! Well let's see I talked to Sean twice. Like 9 people have told me that Jessica has been all over him like white on rice, and I asked her and she said she likes 18 other guys and she wont go out with him. RIGHT NOW IM LISTENING TO BSB'S NEW SONG DROWNING!!!!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!! ITS LIKE THE 5TH TIME IVE LISTENED TO IT TODAY! I sent it to Hope and Jillian and Jillian told me she loves it and Hope hasnt said yet. Just tell me if u wanna hear it and i'll send it to you. Here are the lyrics! YES! AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! SURGE OF BACKSTREET ENERGY!!!!!!!!!
Drowning
Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Coz you are my survival
Now hear me say

I can't imagine
Life without your love
Even forever don't seem like long enough

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
Coz I don't own the safety of floating freely in your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
Coz only you can save me
Oh can't you see

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever don't seem like long enough

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
Coz you're the air that I breathe

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

You'll be hearing it very soon from me at school. lol. Tuesday is the day Around the World BSB video comes out!!!!! YES! Im going to buy it!!!! Then on Sept. 17 or 19 TRL is gonna world premiere the video! YES! im gonna see if i can miss volleyball practice to see the video lol. Well this weekend I went on my Weekend in the Wilderness retreat! Well I came home yesterday early b/c I got sick. I went to bed with a headache but I didn't worry about it cause I always get headaches, but it got so bad i couldnt sleep. I woke up and it was pounding! I had to sit up to sleep b/c it made me nausous to lay down. So i would sit there and take my pillow and lean against it with my hand proping it up. Well that worked some cause my head didnt hurt as much but my hand kept slipping when I was about to doze off. Then I would lay back down and I would get nausous again and sit back up. Then I got so sick from it I threw up 2 times. I didn't throw up anything but spit though b/c I didnt have any food in my stomach. Then I got cold and wrapped myself up in a blanket and I finally got sleepy so i layed down I amazingly slept. So Amy took me home since she was leaving anyway. Well lemme tell u what we did while I was there. Ok now our entire youth is all M/S! I said I felt old b/c everyone was younger than me! lol. Well we 6 h/s girls and like 10 h/s guys but thats b/c 29 more people came on the late bus that night! So we had more later on. Well we were put in clans and there were 10 clans and I was in Righteousness. And me and Adam P. were the only h/s in there! but we got 2 more on saturday from the late bus. Adam is a senior and he's hott! Woah is he hott! Well anyway we played all kinds of different games. And on saturday we played a game that morning where ure team got like 9 slips of paper so each person got one in ure team and they said like no legs, no arms, unconscious, blind or a mixture of them all. And then 2 or 3 people in ure group got one that said Healthy. Now what u had to do was the 3 healthy's had to go find the people that were hurt and carry them back someone! lol! Or they could drag themselves back if they could. Well I was healthy, my leader was, Adam was, and Blaine was. So we had to get rid of one of them so of course I had to lol. And I didnt want to b/c I wanted to carry someone b/c no one can lift me lol. Well I got no legs lol. But I got lucky, b/c where we were I was close to my team so I could try and drag myself back. So I tried but it killed my hands lol. So Adam came and got had to carry me back. Ok now I was like you can't carry me! lol! But he made me get on his back so he could carry me. And I was like amazed he could carry me and plus he walked pretty fast too! I was like i'm glad I lost that 15 pds.! lol! Our team was 3rd when I left out of 10 and the winning team gets a prize, so I hope we won. Well i've gtg! bye!

I spaz out way too much at school cause of our waiter lol.

omgosh i have sean news galore! ok first off i talked to him! Yes I know im cool lol. I was walking with ashley after lunch and all the sudden hes like next to her and im like freaking out cause hes so close. Then they were talking and ashley goes sean this is cortney, cortney this is sean and we both go hey and they started laughing lol. Then like 2 days later jessica said she was talking to him and was like u need to come talk to cortney, u need to give her a hug! lol! And she said he was like yah i'll do that, i might surprise her after school lol. So she told me and I spazed out big time. And that day after lunch I was walking with her and we stopped and she grabbed sean and goes, here she is give her a hug lol. She she grabbed his shirt and pushed him next to me and he put his hand around my waist! SCORE! it was a groovilicous side hug man! And Hope said she saw my face when he did and she said I looked like all happy and drooling lol. And then ashley told me that she talked to him on the net and he said he liked jessica and didnt know if he was gonna ask her out. So for some reason ashley thinks it wont make me feel bad to tell me, so she tells me and right after i got off the phone i started crying and cried for like 15 mins. and I was trying not go cause when I cry anywhere near bedtime I look like i've been beaten the next morning! My eyes get huge bags under them and they swell up so it looks like i cant see. So of course they were when I got up and everyone was like whats wrong cortney? And I was like omgosh I dont wanna talk about it or i'll cry again. And I asked jessica and she said she didnt like him at all and she thinks he doesn like her and she would never go out with him, she wouldnt do that to me. Omgosh such a relief came from me. Its like when ure under pressure and u can let out a sigh, it was like that. And then I was gonna get jessica to spend the night with me after the game ( we lost to Whitwell, help me) but she couldnt cause she had to go to her dads for the weekend, but he said I could come over there. So mom said I could and i was going to and then the next morning before school she said she talked to my dad and they decided i couldnt b/c they didnt know her parents! omgosh how retarded. I got so mad. So then after school me and jessica were walking to the HS and he was walking out so she yells at him and he comes over and I was so close to him omgosh i was like cortney dont make a fool of ureself lol. And she goes whats that in ure hair and it was his birthmark! And she goes u were right, pointing at me and i go yeah. So i kinda talked to him lol. So were gonna try again later this weekend. And so were at the game and we were suppose to meet sean and he was like an hour late lol. But we we hung out with him all night! ALL NIGHT! omgosh ( i say that too much eh?) well anyway we talked some, we didnt know really what to say to each other. Well then he said he was going bowling and out to eat with his friends and he said we could go cause jessica really wanted to go bowling and i knew i wouldnt be able to go ever in my life b/c of my parents so i didnt bother asking. We were gonna get to ride in his car too! im gonna see if we can all do something later! sorry so long! bye!

Fun fun

I had the best time last night with Kimi! omgosh fun! Ok so we get there and I was the first one there and then kimi gets there and she had awesome fake nails! They had flowers and like a jewel in the middle, they were really groovy. Then Jillian came and she looked ADORABLE! She wore these awesome glitter pants, and a tank top. Really cute. Then Megan got there and she looked so country! It was so cute! She wore overalls and her hair in braids. It was so cute. Ok then kimi's mom said when they put their name on the list, that they asked for the cutest waiter and told them it was her bday lol. Then we were sitting outside and I was gonna ask Kimi's mom if she knew anything about Sean and before I could ask anything, she goes now girls tell me about the gossip and who likes who and stuff now. lol! I was like woah! So I asked her about Sean, and she said he's quiet and used to date John Terrell's sister. But she dumped him, I think she said she used him. What a loser she was! She lost a good one. She said he's real shy and she thinks he has a brother or sister going into 6th grade or somewhere around there, and he plays baseball (but I already knew that). Well then they called us so we went to our table and we had a cute waiter too! And guess what his name was? SEAN! AAHH!!!! lol! And when he came back with our drinks, Kimi's mom goes now girls whats our waiters name? And I go SEAN! lol! And when we were sitting there they called Davis party of 5. Jillian freaked! And we didnt think it was them, then she saw his dad. lol! omgosh we were paranoid all night! And we saw his mom and Caleb too but no Jason or Jeremy. Then towards the end of dinner, Sean brought a ice cream cake thing our for kimi and got a chair to shout out to everyone. And he yelled the loudest so the entire resteraunt could hear. lol. And he goes this is Kimi, she's turning 15, and she's looking for a hott date! lol! Then we left and went and saw Mummy 2, and it was awesome! And then there were some rednecks 2 rows in front of us and we thought they were smoking pot or something but were not sure. Spurling said that friday at the football game that she talked to SEAN! At the snack line thing! She said next time she'll introduce me to him lol. yay!

Aahhh I'm in la la land!

ok I have new news about my hottie in the hall! ok so of course I went the long way to History this morning and I saw my man (YES). Then Megan W. said when she was walking into the history room that she ran into him! Like ran or bumped into him! NOT FAIR! OMGOSH! And omgosh he looked the hottest today than he has all year! He was wearing blue jeans, white button up shirt, tie, and gelled hair ( HAIR GEL! LOL! ) OMGOSH HOTTNESS! Even Megan W. said he looked good! lol! Well then she walked with me down the hall after History on my way to 3rd period and he was at his locker ( that was the whole reason I went that way was to see him at his locker). Well she thought it would be funny to make me bump into him too, so she pushed me hard so I would fall on him! But I caught my feet before I did, so he didnt see anything. Omgosh I beat her! Then I said I was going to make eye contact with him today and after lunch Megan was walking with me and he was walking down the hall our way, and she goes Cortney look! and smiled. And I looked at him and HE LOOKED AT ME!! OMGOSH!!!!! But sometime next week im gonna try again and make it last longer. And then before lunch we were looking at the yearbook from 99'-01' and he was in there and his name is SEAN ------------. So he goes by Sean and not by ADAM. Sean Adam ------------. Yes hottness! And he plays baseball! I told ashley s. to see if he comes to the football game and to tell me what he's wearing if he does. Fun Fun.

Yes Bootylicious!

ok now im SUPER STOKED!!!!!!! Ok, today at school I had just sat down in Bible class and I had been watching to see if Adam would walk by. Well he did I think. I saw the last bit of his head and backpack and his hair looked geled so I was like Yah Baby! lol. Well then I go the long way to History to see if I can see him. Then I see him, and I'm walking to history and I end up right behind him! No one else in between! Yes! That man is tall! And Hott!!!! Well then Whitney (goes to my church) said hey SHAWN! And she was talking to him b/c she grabbed his shoulders. So his first name is Shawn, but im not sure what he goes by! So now im confused. So im gonna ask Whitney if she knows him well and i'll find out all I can about him. Well then after lunch I was going to Algebra and his locker is right next to my algebra class!!!!!!! AAAHHH!!!!! And I walk by and since he has a bottom locker he's bending over! Yes! BUTT SHOT! lol! Then after school since I didnt have vball practice I went back to the h/s after chorus to see if I could find him. Well I went to my locker and I told Jillian to look for him b/c she was waiting to go to her locker b/c Daniel was sitting there lol. Well I got done with my books and was standing there and Megan hit me on the back and said there he goes, and he walked out the door. So me and her ran out and he turned right to go to the parking lot. Well me and Megan walked SUPER SLOW, and watched him go to the parking lot and I was gonna try and find his car. Then finally he stops and he has a white SUV, but im not for sure but Megan said he stopped there and put his stuff in so I dunno. HOTTNESS!!!!!! AAHHH!!! Good Day! Well i got up at 5:15 to curl my hair and it was adorable when it was all done and brushed with hair spray and when I got to school it turned wavy and flat. So then everyone thought I put waves in it! lol! But it was still cute, just wavy and POOFY!. I wanted it to be curly until Adam saw it just once, but I think he did so no biggie! lol! And now im gonna try and make eye contact with him for once lol! yes! Staring at each other. Woah im crazy I know. BSB!!!!!!

??????

Well not much has happened since Monday. Well I thought I had found out my man's last name but it turns out it wasnt him so he came in 10th grade so i'll look in the new yearbooks whenever they come in. Well anyway Spurling was squeezed in between me and kelly on tuesday at lunch lol. Well she was like buggin the crap out of me like Do u want me to ask him a question for u???? Like she wanted to and I was just like no cause I didnt really care and so I threatened her lol but she said she was gonna go get a napkin and I let her cause it was almost time to leave. So she lied to me and stops right there and it was time to leave so we left lol and she asked where he lived and I heard one of them say In the ghetto, get away! lol! Then they said East Brainerd. I wanna know if he plays any sports? hmmm, I wonder. Well Megan W. said that she saw his backpack and his initials are SAC, So his last name starts with a C like me! yes! Now I think he's gonna think that there are these little freshmen girls that are obsessed with him cause we ask him questions at lunch lol. Well then they do hit on Hope and Spurling everyday and they talked to Megan W today too lol. I think he's in the reject group lol. I dont care though. I found out his locker # too! Yes! Bottom locker, bottom locker, bottom locker, like me! I wish he would gel his hair though. It looks better like that. Oh well he's still a hottie. lol. We got our vball uniforms today! yay! They are blue shorts with Lady bucs in cursif on the bottom and our shirts are white with our #'s and lady bucs on the front and #'s on the back. Well I ordered an XL shirt and shorts and I got the shirt in XL but they only got 2 XL shorts and 4 girls ordered them! and Im the smallest of them so I got a large and they fit fine, but there really SHORT, I feel like a cheerleader! No one wants to see my fat legs! lol! But there really cute so no biggie. I lost 2 1/2 pds in 1 day! Omgosh! After dinner last night I went and walked 2 miles and I lost that much this morning so im going to walk again in a minute. Well gtg bye!

Awesome Day!

omgosh today was awesome! I dont even care that its monday I had a wonderful day! Ok well I was at lunch and my hottie in the hall sat facing me again today (oh yeah) And Megan W. was telling Brittany C. that I liked him and stuff and that I didnt know his name and was dying to find out. So Brittany was gonna ask him! (omgosh help me). So i grabbed her shirt at the arm as hard as i could and threatened her if she said anything I would make her look like crap in front of Nick! lol but that didnt work b/c she doesnt like him anymore lol. Well when I got done threatening her I let go of her shirt and I left a knuckle print or shirt grab mark on her arm lol. Well ya know what she did? She yells at one of her guy friends who was sitting near him and goes " Hey Matt! Whats the guys name in the blue and white striped shirt?" I was like omgosh im going to die! Then he goes Adam! Then immediately Brittany turns to me and goes, ' Cortney, his name's Adam!' omgosh i could feel my face turn red cause it got hott. And then she told me a few mins ago that he smiled after she asked! lol! YES! Score! LOL! Well i'll write if anything else happens with him. Oh by the way he has a bottom locker too! yes! I need to find out his locker #!

Shopping.

Ok today I went to church and there planning a ski trip on January 5-7 or something and im going! but the thing is u cant miss more than 8 absenses from church or u cant go. So u have to read and fill our ure lesson thingy and turn it in on sunday morning to ure teacher. Then the more absenses u have the more ure trip costs! So if u miss 0 or 1 then its like 125$ then like 20$ up everytime! So im definately not missing many! Its in West Virginia so its like 9 or 10 hours away and i cant wait to go! i've never skied before so i'll be like beginner or intermediate lol. After church I went to the mall with mom! She doesnt have to use her walker or crutches anymore but she still has to go to therapy to build her leg back up so she doesnt limp anymore. She'll start working again next monday. Well when we were at the mall I got 3 polo shirts for school and we went and looked at the jackets for winter. Well I was looking and then Mrs. Young and Marianne were there and started talking to mom and they talked for like 10 mins. Then Brittany M. came by when my mom was talking and she hit me lol. Then I started looking at my coat and Hope and her mom walked by! So I yelled HOPE! And she stopped and looked around and goes someone is calling me lol. And i talked to hope for 10 mins and my mom talked to her mom about hair and stuff lol. And I must of looked stupid talking to hope cause I had on this big grey coat lol, Hope must of thought I was crazy lol. Then we went and I got a belt which is awesome cause it has a studded buckle! Groovy! then we left and went to sonic, yeah! Fave place to eat man! Then we went to Bi-Lo and got food for tonight cause we had hamburgers and hot dogs and mamaw and papaw came over and ate with us. And I was gonna go walk and when I got outside it started sprinkling! So im going to tomorrow. gtg bye!

ARG!

omgosh im going to go insane because of morgan. Ok i was online and i was already mad at her. Then she ims me and goes guess what and i go what. She said shes the varsity vball manager now and mrs heleton said she could play some too and practice with us. HOW STUPID CAN MORGAN BE! Shes never played vball before like i have and has no idea how much strength it takes and has no idea what shes getting herself into. One thing is she didnt have to go through all the crap I had to to even make the team. She doesnt play vball she plays basketball. Thats her sport and this is mine. SHe didnt go to camp for a week and a jam her finger. She didnt have practice for 2 weeks with a scraped up knee ( all b/c of her), and she didnt even go to tryouts. Thats crap. And she was the one who hurt my chances of even making the vball team in the first place! She was the one being retarded and tripped me at registration and didnt even bother helping me up. All she did was laugh at me. So since she tripped me i couldnt slide. And since i couldnt slide i couldnt dig, and since i couldnt dig i couldnt hit alot of the vballs so then it looks like i cant play at all so then i might not of made the team period. omgosh i am so mad right now. She didnt jam her finger and still play. She didnt dig with a bad knee. She didnt cry 4 times in one day last year thinking she wasnt gonna make the vball team for the next year, and ya know what i did ALL THOSE THINGS AND MORE. OMGOSH SOMEONE SHOOT ME NOW. not cool. so not cool.

Volleyball!

I MADE THE VOLLEYBALL TEAM!!!!!! OMGOSH!!!!! AAHHHH!!!!!!! See I got to school and just dropped my stuff and walked to the gym. Well when I got there it wasnt posted on either doors or the other gym. So I go back and Allison said like 5 mins later lets go see lol. So we went again and Morgan followed us which was ridiculous, and I asked why are u going since u dont play vball? and she goes i'm going where allison is going. How retarded is that? Im like so mad at her. All she wants to do is hang out with Allison and they are NOTHING ALIKE AT ALL. I saved her a seat Tuesday at lunch and lunch was terrible! I had to pick a seat out and everyone was spread out everywhere! So i managed to find a seat and like 7 people came by and they could of sat by me but I said no cause I was saving it for Morgan. Well since the lines were 5 miles long there was like 10 mins left in lunch when she finally got her food, so I was like finally, cause I was tired of saving the seat. So she just looks at me from far away and mumbles shes gonna sit with allison! I was so POED! OMGOSH HOW RUDE IS THAT? I took the time to save her a seat and lots of my friends wanted to sit there next to me and I blew them off for Morgan. That was stupid of me to do that for her. Shes known Allison for like 3 weeks and me since she was 5. That was so mean of her. I AM SO MAD AT HER. And this morning she said hey to me and I didnt look at her cause I was putting my bag on the shelf so I waved backwards at her and someone said she said to them " shes mad at me " well ya know what? I AM. And she only says hi to me once a day and doesnt say anything else to me all day. Well Allison will dump her when she gets tired of her and she'll come crawling back to me cause she wont know anyone else and im gonna say sorry Morgan u blew me off and I have other friends so please dont bother me. I dont care of its mean she was mean to me. Her pants are too tight too cause it makes her butt look bigger. Well back to volleyball. Mrs Heleton had just gotten there when we got to the gym and she posted it, and ALL THE JV MADE IT! Thats 12 people! AAAHHHH!!!!!! Thats way too many people! They should of cut more. like 3 people or something, to make the JV have only likr 9 or 10 people not 12. Thats a whole seperate team my gosh. Well I dont care cause I could of been one of those 3 or 4. We get our uniforms Monday! Thats if they come in and they pass them out. I'm # 1! OMGOSH I HAVE 3 HOTTIES!!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHHH!!!!! Ok one is JD, 2nd is BW, and my 3rd( which is my fave I dont know his name!) I dont know his name! AAHHH!!!! He's real tall, like 6'2 or 6'3, thin, almost black hair or dark brunette, braces, and hes a junior. And Megan is gonna bring me her yearbook from 7th grade for me to see if hes in there so I can find his name. And usually everyday at lunch he sits at the table next to us and today he sat facing me away from the rest of the cafeteria and I HAD PERFECT VIEW OF HIM! AAAHH!!!!! HOTTNESS!!! Hope was right in front of him, and I go Hope dont move ure head! And she sat there for about 5 secs and ate her lunch and moved her mouth but didnt move her head as a joke, then moved it over right in front of him and Jillian did too on purpose. lol. I have the best friends lol. And then after lunch upstairs in the hall, I stood right next to him!!!!!! AAAHHH!!!! YES! Hottness!!!! And I thought he wasnt here today cause he was at his table, but then he comes over to the table near us where u get ketchup and mustard and stuff and I go OMGOSH THERE HE IS! lol! I was physched! And I stopped looking at him so it didnt look like I was staring and Jillian goes Cortney look, and I go no, and she goes Cortney look now. So I took her advice and looked and he was facing opposite of me and I had a buttshot! YES! HOTTNESS!!!! Bootylicious! He has a nice one too, but not as nice as AQUA! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! I MISS HIM SO MUCH! I want him to visit now! wow this is a long journal entry. I havent written like a week though. Well i have to go get my current event. bye.

Boring Day.

I am bored out of my mind. I would like to go to volleyball practice right now cause that means I am doing something. It's early today too. It starts at 3:00-4:30 so it's short today. They gave us a schedule yesterday and it has like 9 games on there and 5 of them are play days which dont count as games i think. And the V schedule is like all the way down the page! Well then they said that from now on there gonna push us harder so this is like tryouts. And they said that from camp all the way up till next week it's been tryouts somewhat. And there gonna post the team Wednesday! AAHHH!!! My name better be on the list or im going to cry forever. Omgosh yesterday my knee killed and I wasnt gonna slide at all and of course yesterday we had to do digging ALL PRACTICE. Well I decided to try it and it hurt so much! I started crying! But i decided to suck it up and dig for the rest of the practice cause I wanna make the team more than ANYTHING! But once I got started it didn't hurt that much. I GOT MY SERVES OVER!!! AAHHH!!!!! We did serving at the very end of practice and I think I served like 12 or 13 times and I got like 9 or 10 of em over! Hard serves too with a flat palm! But the ones I missed were over the net but they got hit out. So I was so happy! I was skipping along for my next turn lol. I got 2 people to take moo to her m/s classes! Jillian has science with her so she said she'd take her and hang out with her, and Kris has art with her and he likes her so he said he'd take her anyway. So I'm happy! yay! Spurling said she might trade lockers with me! yay! She has a top one but she doesnt wanna be next to jim and all those people again lol. So shes gonna look at it and see if she likes it or not. I REALLY dont want a bottom locker! I'm too tall! Ahhh practice is soon I gotta leave in an hour and 15 mins so im gonna go! bye!

Long time no update.

Woah! I have not updated this in 2 months! dude im lazy i know. lol. Well let's see whats happened to me since june 12th. AJ went into rehab. Hope called me and said they had huge bsb news on trl and i started crying before trl even came on. Cried for an hour and a half listening to BSB music. I have taken and I still am taking all the " AJS IN REHAB! HAHAHA!!!! BSB ARE BREAKING UP! " crap. And i'm sure it will continue to come from all my friends and people i dont even know. fun. On a brighter note I lost 12 pds! Yay! And people think I look thinner! Its awesome! I will be thin in 28 more pds! yay! Then i'll get my braces off at xmas (hopefully) and then i'll be cute and thin and tall and blonde and get a b/f! But i'm not gonna press my luck lol. I went to vball camp! Not as fun as I had expected. It was Monday 7pm-10pm and i didn't get done until 10:30 so I didnt get home till 11:00-11:15, had to take the shortest shower I have ever taken and then go to bed and get up at 7 and go tuesday-thursday from 9-10 pm! ALL DAY! But the JV did get 2nd place in the tournament. We played temple and we beat them the day before! We played like poo. But it's ok no big deal. Its not like it counted in the season anyway. Well this week we've had vball practice all this week and we havent had tryouts yet! And were gonna have practice next week too! So i don't even know if were gonna have tryouts, besides everyone already picked their uniform size and # b/c we got completely new uniforms. They are white shirts with blue sleeves. And the sleeves have 2 white stripes on them and the shirt has 2 blue strips on them. And the shorts are blue with 2 white strips, and its gonna say lady bucs on the front with our # and our # on the back. I wanted 99 but we couldnt go over 50 so they called and said I had to pick another # so I gave them 4. I gave them 1, 14, 25, 36. So i'm # 1. Yay! lol. We had registration yesterday at school and our party the day before. Heres the thing. I didnt wanna go to the party and Morgan begged me too so I went and I was gonna spend the night with her and they were gonna take me to registration with them and I was gonna show them around. Well at moo's house we did Richard Simmons workout tapes! lol! It was so funnny! And i finally said " Hey moo, do u ever notice that he has all the same people in all his videos and none of them look any thinner. lol!" we cracked up! Then we went to hardees the next day and went to register. And here are my classes: 1) Girl's Bible (9th and 10th 2gether)2) History 3) Spanish 4) acc. english 5) Algebra 6)Biology 7) girls chorus. Fun fun. I have 1 class with moo! 1! 3 with jillian and tudor! yay! 1 with kelly and emmy and none with spurling and hope! NONE! AAHHH!!!!! Its ok though b/c I didnt have any with Hope last year and she's one of my best friends and we only saw each other before school and during lunch, thats when we talked, so I guess we'll do that again lol. And Spurling HATES Drew now, she like despises him. She already has a new b/f, and he has a new g/f her names Courtney! lol! Well let's see Its gonna be Spurling, Jessica, and Morgan, they are all gonna sit by me at lunch lol. More people! yay! lol I want more friends! I can't ever have enough! yay! We have 13 new people this year too! And theres this hot blonde guy and he's like drew l. all over again lol. But Drew's ALOT cuter. Well when we were at registration me and moo were walking to the middle school and we were walking next to each other and she ACCIDENTALLY ( i think) tripped me! I fell and of course I had to have my ripped jeans on that dont have ANY cloth on my knees. So I fell and I tried to catch myself with my hands but that just scraped my hands. So my entire left knee looks like its bleeding all the time and my elbow is scratched up along with my hands. And now I cant slide in vball! THANK U MORGAN! And then instead of helping me up, she laughed at me. Laughed at me! Mom went upstairs! We were so happy but not as happy as she was! She's washed herself and stuff downstairs but couldnt take a shower, and the first thing she did was take a shower! So now she goes up whenever she wants to! Go mom! She'll start work the 3 week of school. I know she can't wait to drive. Well thats alot of info! Oh by the way I have a stupid BOTTOM LOCKER! AAHHH!!!! I'm too tall to have a bottom locker! I've always had a top! not fair! I won't go there much anyway, so it's not a big deal.

Is it Monday yet?

Ok, it's only saturday. Saturday night. Almost time for bed. Bed=sleep. Sleep=Sunday morning. Sunday morning=BSB day! BSB day=almost monday. Monday=BSB CONCERT!!!!!!!! Ok tomorrow is BSB day. ALL BSB STUFF, to get ready for Monday. BSB videos, all of them, listen to all BSB cds, write I love BSB, currently at 21,439, dance to everybody, read BSB book. LOTS OF BSB STUFF!!!!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Well i'm sleepy, ttyl bye.

Backstreet Boy dream!

AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! I had the best dream last night! I dreamed about Brian Littrell!! AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! aka bsb member. Ok so i'm at one of their concerts and it's after the concert and i'm sitting on something and Brian comes over and I freak! So I said something like I do everything for you or something and he likes that so he stays and we talk for like 45 mins! dude I was stoked! So then AJ's sittin at a table signing autographs and I get in line for that and I was in the back and he leaves! I didn't get his autograph! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! But now I have a fascination with Bri. But it's no biggie, AJ's still my apple pie a la mode lol. I had a dream about Nick and had the fetish with him, then I forget about it and go back to AJ. No big deal. BACKSTREET BOYS in 5 days!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! BAD SEATS BUT I DONT CARE!!!!!!! Well anyway, I started my diet Sunday and i'm starving! lol. but i've lost 3 pds! yes! By my next BSB concert whenever it is, i'll be thin and have my braces off! Yes! AJ will want me then! yes! Well gtg! bye!

Can we say Backstreet?

BACKSTREET! On TRL's top 30 retired videos! And of course # 1 was BSB I want it that way, but instead of the video, they PERFORMED! AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Then I got on the net and blasted IWITW out of napster and my window was open so my mom and dad were outside and started laughing. 2 more weeks until bsb! AAAAAHHHH!!!! AJ! ooooo, not enough words to describe that apple pie a la mode! AAHHH!!!! I went to Old Navy today and spent my 40$ gift card that I got for my bday from Granny and Papaw, and there was a section in the middle of ALL FLAG STUFF! I about died. And it was all like 5$ too! I got like 4 shirts and a hat, and 2 shirts didn't fit, so i'm going back and exchanging them! I'm gonna go see Pearl Harbor on monday, hopefully. War holidays rule man! I joined 2 Navy egroups! Yes! "in the navy..." I don't know the rest of the song. haha. Gotta go, bye!

Happy Birthday To Me!

Today's my 14th bday! Yay! It's not as exciting as last year b/c I turned a teenager last year and i'm not having a party this year either, except for family. I got like 7 cards today! I was so happy! Then at lunch, my mom came and got me a cookie cake! it said Cortney Happy Bday volleyball Backstreet Boys! BACKSTREET BOYS! It was an awesome cake! I wanted to freeze the BSB part. lol. Oh my gosh, last night Brittany called me and said that a guy named Kevin Richardson was over at her mom's house! I freaked! Her mom called Brittany cause she didnt know who Kev was! She said he was tall and had dark hair! I was like AHHHH!!!!! But he was only 24 and his first name was Ronald, me and Brittany were like, We were so close! lol Its ok! 20 days till BSB concert! Yes! Rock on! AAHHHH!!!!!! Im gonna order a black tank top in Delias that has a flower on it and it says Rock, hope it fits, if it does im wearing it to the bsb concert! Then at my family bday party, mom got me a blue duffel bag that had in yellow my name and had vballs on it! School colors! It was so cute! and she got me a red shirt with flags on it! Yes! Americans rock! Then granny got me a 40$ gift certificate from old navy! And Papaw gave me 14 bucks too! I have 103$! And i'll get report card money too! yes! I'm gonna save my money for the BSB concert and FL this summer! Well gottta go!

Not so good

Everytime I right a journal entry, it seems i'm not happy. I'm always depressed or something. Well I am. Yesterday at school, I don't know why, but during 3rd period, I got a stomach ache. So I asked Coach May to let me go to the bathroom. Came back and it started bothering me again, so I went and got mom. I sat in there for like 45 mins and finally mom took me home. And it couldnt of been something I ate b/c I only had 2 small bites of a poptart, and like 4 or 5 baked lays. And then today I was scared to eat ANYTHING. I didn't eat breakfast, or at break and mom said she was gonna make me eat a turkey sandwich at lunch, but I did anyway, I WAS STARVING. But now I have a headache. She was right, aaahhhh. As much as I don't wanna say it, she was right. Well anyway, six flags is saturday! Yah! And my birthday is in 5 days! Go me! I'll be 14! Yah! Well got to go, bye!

TRL

BLINK 182= no # 1 video on trl, no clothes (ew especially on Mark), bad songs= no fans=no more blink 182! HAHAHA! THEY SUCK!

Chicken!

OMGOSH! Ok Friday, me and Woman went and saw Josie and the Pussycats, and then on Saturday, (she spent the night with me), we went to Chick-Fil-A (Hope). AND I WAS DYING TO SEE IF CHRIS WAS WORKING THAT DAY. We went in and he wasnt up there and THEN HE CAME FROM THE BACK! OMGOSH I ALMOST FAINTED! And my mom went to his register! Yes! Well I was wearing my Powersource shirt and he said, Hey I thought I recognized that shirt! I about died! And he took our order and he asked if we needed any sauce, and I said barbeque without thinking, I even forgot I liked it, just wanted to talk more, AND HE HANDED IT TO ME AND TOUCHED MY HAND! I THOUGHT I HAD DIED WHEN HE TOUCHED MY HAND, OMGOSH!. Well then we were eating and Sarah waved at me! I didnt even know she worked there! Then the GIANT cow came out. VERY big cow, and it went and stood on the side of the road, and we waved to it! haha! BSB NEW VIDEO ON MONDAY! AAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! MORE THAN THAT! BSB MIGHT BE THERE TOO! DOUBLE AAAHHH! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! Heath Ledger on TRL TODAY! HOTTNESS! YES! Well gtg, i'm hungry too. Haha. I want some chicken, HOPE.

NO! HE LEFT AGAIN! NOT AGAIN!

AAHHHHH I guess Aqua is leaving today. Probably already gone. I wont see him ever or until next school year. He has to visit! AAHHHH!!!!!!! Well they made more fun of me in Bible today. The same old, CORTNEY QUIT TALKING, when I wasnt. Ashley said CB, Cortney's being annoying again, she wont stop talking, I think you need to make her go out in the hall and talk to her! AAHHH!!!! I could of killed her! And before Bible, Me, Jillian, and Kimi were coming back from break up the stairs, and Kimi cleared her throat, and I looked up and he was walking down the stairs next to us! AHHH!!!! Then during our Bible quiz, I asked him a question! I probably looked stupid asking it, but his eyes. aahhhh, I dont feel stupid after looking in them. AQUA EYES! Yes! I wish I had some too, and we'd match! Yes! Meant to be! Then last night, Adam took me to the movies and he went and met one of his friends and Ashley S. was gonna go see Josie and the Pussycats with me. And she was like 10-15 mins late! As always! So she spent the night with me, and we went in and POPCORN BOY WAS THERE! AHHHH!!!! YES! Spiked hair and all! Yes! And I wanted an ici, but, I really wanted to see Popcorn boy! And when I walked out of the theater, there were only 2 people in there anyway, He was down there where they take ure tickets. And he looked at me! Yes! And that ici tasted bad too. And Adam got a application to work there, and they need help, so if he gets a job he'll be working with popcorn boy! Yes! But he has a g/f :( He was there with this ugly girl who has a really big nose, and they were holding hands. :( bummer. But anyway I got my pictures! YES! GOTT EM OF CHRIS! THEY CAME OUT! ALL 3 OF THEM! YES! There kinda far away, but he looks good still! Hottness! AAHHH!!!!!!!! DROOL!

AQUA! AHHH!

OMGOSH AQUA WAS BACK TODAY! AAAHHHH!!!! And he subbed for our Bible class! AAHHH!!!! He was up there and he walked down my aisle and he tripped on Megan W.'s backpack but he caught himself! If he hadnt he would of fell on me! AAHHH!!!!! And he whispered in Merri Wynne's ear, and she said he blew in it too! AAHHHH!!!! NOT FAIR! AAHHHHH hes gonna be our sub tomorrow! Ashley and Emmy and Brittany and Megan all tried to get me in trouble by yelling Quit talking Cortney! When I wasnt evn doing anything! Then he said well if you didnt already know I;ve moved to Nashville and Ashley goes, Aww poor Cortney! AAHHHH!!!!! Hey Hope, Green skittles! AAHHH!!!!!! I saw Chris last night too! Hottness.com! Ooohhh baby! Gotta get pics developed! Soon! SATURDAY! YES! FRAME IT!

Tired. Ah.

Ok, I just got back today at 1:30 from my retreat and we had the best time! I am the sorest i've ever been in my life, I swear I am. I cannot stretch my arm straight up high, and i have 9 bruises on one leg, and 12 on the other, fun, fun. Ok we got there and we ate dinner and then we did Bible study and our speaker was awesome! He was so groovy! Then we got into our tribes. Ok, now there were 6 tribes. Purity, Motivation, Perserverance, Strength, Joy, and Love. I was in Joy. And that was suppose to be Eric's group but he had to take Amy to the Hospital. Poor Amy. So we had another guy, Mike take over as our leader. Then in my group it was me, Whitney, Lauren, Brett, Blake, and Tim. Now, we went to the "tribal meeting" haha, and talked about what our group meant. And now let me tell you, every tribe had a flag that their leader had made, but Eric couldnt make one so yah know what our flag was? We had a small white towel, with Joy and a smiley face spray painted green on it, with no pole. But we had the best flag by far! So at the camp fire, we had to go with our group and look for the glow sticks in the woods and write the names down on the cards next to em. We got like 5th or something. Then we went back and did whatever and went to bed. The next day we got up and ate and had a Bible study, and our speaker got a chair and made a prayer chair. He sat a chair in the front facing everyone and if you had something you wanted to pray about, you came up and sat in the chair and talked about it. Well like 7 people did and 3 cried. Ashley started the crying, which I think was wonderful, cause it all brought us closer. And after each person got done, the speaker (Kenny Crook, who was an absolute beautiful speaker), said who wants to come pray for so and so. So people would come up and circle around them and put their hands on them and pray for them. Well when Ashley went up there he was crying when she got done talking. We all were crying. So, at the end the very last prayer was for Eric and Amy, and we all sat there in the floor and cried for them. It was so sad, but i'm glad we did that. Then we went swimming! We had 2 boats and 2 jet skies, and a slide, and a swinging rope. I went on the boat first and went tubbing with Michelle. Bad Idea. Ok we cant even get on the tube so were falling off. So I manage to hang on some and ure suppose to keep ure legs up but if I did that it would hurt my knees, so he stopped and Ashley rode with Michelle, and I got red marks from the water on my legs, then i noticed my toe was bleeding. Well Michelle went 3 times and evertime fell off! haha! Go Michelle! Then I went seadooing. And Adam was gonna take me cause u had to be 16 to drive one, but Ryan C. took me instead. He's so cute! Ashley's so lucky to have him. He said he needed his seadoo cause this one was slow, and he was flying around in the water, doing turns and stuff and I fell off! lol. It was fun though. Then I went on the boat again just for the ride. Then I was all wet and it was time to go play the dirty game they talked about all weekend. So i went and changed into some dry clothes and we had to do an obstacle course. We had to go with our leader to the little island and do the course and back again and the next person went. Well we had the worst time with the canoe. It kept going in circles! So while we were on our 2nd person, everyone else was on their 4th and 5th. Well were last of course lol. And I got so dirty and wet. I had mulch and mud all over me and I was soaked cause we had to swim. Well after that we went and ate dinner, and had a Bible study. Then we played another game. Food games. And they had on the table 6 plates with an 8oz bottle of water, 4 lemon pieces, and pile of sugar. And so I knew I could do that, lol, so I volunteered. U had to eat the lemons, then the sugar, and all the water and turn around twice and jump up and down twice and sit down. Well the sugar made me gag, cause it was just plain, but I got 4th or 3rd, I think 4th. Then another 6 peeps had to eat Baby food! Then another 6 had to have an alcacelcer in their mouth! Whitney got 2nd on that! Go Whitney! Then you had to bob for apples, and Tim was gonna go, but the water so cold, and he couldnt stand it, so we forfeit, but not biggie we did alot better that night. Then I went and took a shower and me, Rebecca, Amber, Chris, Ashley, Ryan, Michelle, Stan, and I think someone else all went on a boat right that night. It was the most gorgeous thing. It was so clear out and there were SO many stars. And Chris drove the boat! lol. Then we went back and switched people and went again, but it wasnt as much fun. Then we went to bed. Ok, I could not walk today. I was so sore. It hurts to laugh or cough or bend over, or anything like that. We all were in pain. And our last game was this morning. We had to go and hold hands with our team and go to 4 points and answer questions about a story we had just heard and we'd get a number. And we got all of em and we were 4th.
Then we loaded the bus and went to McDonalds for lunch and I came home and took a nap. AAAHHH, so tired. Well i'll write later on. Too tired to do anything else.