Well im pretty sure today officially sucked ass. I had an awful day.

Well it rained it all day which made me have an awful headache. I think this has been the slowest day of my life. Every class went by so slow. Bible dragged on forever and he made us get out our Bibles and look at the verses we already read yesterday. He wanted to make sure we could SEE them. It was all about baptism and salvation which is eventually just gonna make everyone mad cause no one believes the same thing. I dont know why he teaches the same thing every year. He somehow manages to bring something like this and denominations into play. And honestly i love coach brown to death, i just dont like when he says his views ALL the time which are obviously all church of christ which isnt fair to the rest of us. When we talk about baptism tomorrow and our views, im gonna throw him a curve ball and say i dont think u need to be baptized to go to heaven.

Then the hell of english came and i thought i was going to strangle someone. Mrs Roland gets more irritating daily. I hate her little voices she uses and facial expressions and little words she loves to use. GOLL I CANNOT EXPLAIN TO U THE HATRED I HAVE TOWARDS THAT CLASS. And whats worse is even if i was going to drop it at semester, i still have to have her. And i wont drop it cause theres no point in my suffering for half a year and not at least trying the AP exam, which i will fail anyway. Plus if i drop it, its gonna look like i cant handle the "load" when the reality is that i read and do everything else before anyone and thats a fact. No one even starts or finishes the readings until a week before its due. Besides im not gonna give the people in the class that satisfaction of knowing they were "better" than me in some ways.

Well then Brittany wasnt here today,so i sat by myself in art again. We also had a fire drill so i got to stand in the cold looking stupid with all the middle schoolers around. All the girls in my class were talking with each other and i just kinda looked around.

Well it rained off and on at lunch. And when everyone was inside getting food, it started raining pretty hard so i grabbed everyone's purse and went inside looking for a table. I looked like i had been Christmas shopping i had so many purses lol. But then it stopped so we went back out.

Well then i found out that the teacher that does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING decides to give us a project thats a test grade thats due the same day as my gov. project. Thats great. Something else to do. Oh yeah and mrs hood gave us a current event, which i want to burn. I cant wait to get out of h/s just so i wont have to do those anymore. I just did one yesterday for contemporary issues! AAHHH! DIE!

Yeah well let me ask a question? When u see someone with their eyes closed/trying to sleep, u would decide to leave them alone wouldnt u? Well not Megan Gass. Im trying to rest in pre cal b/c my head hurt pretty bad and shes looking for a mirror for whatever reason. I hear her ask Megan, then she asks Lindley. So im trying to sleep and i hear, "cortney". Im thinking, wtf do u want? So i ignore her since im "sleeping", hoping she'd get the hint. Well no. Why would i think that she would understand to leave someone alone? A few minutes later i hear, Cortney (pause), Cortney (pause), Cortney (pause). CANT U SEE IM SLEEPING AND DONT WANNA TALK TO U!?!?!?! Oh im so glad shes not in my room for Disney, im glad she doesnt ride rides, im glad she cant drive her car for a while cause she cant sit in my car every morning and im especially glad im a senior so i wont have to see her EVER AGAIN AFTER MAY! PRAISE GOD!!!! THATS SUCH A BLESSING!!!!!!!

Oh yeah and heres the icing on the cake. So since my dad works at TVA, they have some scholarship for seniors to apply for. U have to write an essay at a certain place and have recommendations and good grades whatever. So i walk into english today and see Valerie with one of the scholarship packets. "hey are u taking that?" "yeah" "oh does your dad work at tva?" yeah" Well thats just dandy since she has a 4.0 and made a 30 on her act the FIRST TIME. WHY DO I EVEN TRY??????? WHY!?!?!?!?! Everyone that takes these things are brilliant! Theres not one stupid bone in their body! How can anyone normal compete with that level of smartness? I know i cant! I dont see how that can be fair. Those type of people get to go to any college and get just about any kind of scholarship they want. Why cant the common student with decent grades win something to help out their family?

STATE!

WERE GOING TO STATE BABY! YYYYYYYEEEEEEEEUUUUUUHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i dont feel like typing a real long entry so i'll do some highlights.

We froze our butts off last night.

We won 38 to 13.

With 6 seconds left before half time, Drew, Matt P, Weston and someone else pulled a hook and ladder play. They tossed the ball to each other in like perfect sync and scored! BAHAHAHA! You should have seen Coalfield's faces.

Were playing DCA again, who are also blue and gold.

We scored our first touchdown of the night by an interception 1:30 min into the game.

WERE GOING TO STATE! YEAH!!!!!!!! MURFEESBORO HERE I COME!

Christmas is coming....

Well i have had a jampacked day i must say. So i got up around 8:30 cause i went over to Ashley's last night and watched shrek 2 and some of Elf and got home a little after 12. But for some reason i couldnt fall asleep until after 1:30. OH I FORGOT TO TELL U THAT WE WON THE FOOTBALL GAME! AHH!!! So i was all pumped and had it on the radio and was listening to it. So FCA scores first, 7 to 0. We get the ball, 7 to 7. Then 14 to 7 them, then 14 to 14 and then 14 to 20 us at half time. So after that it was all us. I was at Ashleys and meenal called me when i was sitting in my car and we had just scored again. So the final score was 21 to 49!! WOO WOO! It was 20 to 49 last year, that was kinda weird. But this game should be at home or at finley this week. We play colefield i think thats how u pronounce it. But apparently, there not very strong. WERE GOING TO STATE BABY! We'll wind up playing DCA again though. There gonna be out for blood since we beat them last year. Oh well. Go Bucs!

So back to my day.

So me and dad get ready and go to do some Christmas shopping since my mom isnt here. We go and i buy Jillians present which she is going to love. And then we go to the mall and spend most of the time over by Penneys. We go and head to Bath and Body first, but they didnt have the stuff i was gonna get Ashley, so we decided to go the one upstairs later. But then i come out and my dad is buying something for me at the calendar place. He made me go away lol. I know what it is though. Its an Ireland agenda that i wanted. He goes, i saw this and knew u would like it. I hope it is Ireland lol. So then we go to the cart that sells purses and wallets in front of Lane Bryant. We looked at all of them and got mom a dog purse and matching wallet. And then back over to the calendar table and i got her a cat calendar. Then we headed over to Bath and Body. Ok i spent so much time here, kept getting the wrong items with my deal and then in the end, got jipped. So i had a spend 35$ and get 2 free products card. So i get my things and one of the things i couldnt get cause it didnt go with the card. So then the girl tells me theres also a buy 3 things get 1 free deal. So overall i said, so i can spend 35$ and get 3 free things instead of 2 right? And she said yes to my face. So i get 3 other things, go back and stand in line, cant get 2 of them, go get more, stand in line, cant get one of them, go back and finally get what i need. She rings it up, and its 51$. I was about to crap all over myself. I didnt even care by that point and just bought it. I ended up getting 2 free things. I dont know how she coned me into that. I dont care anymore. I did that last year too. I should have just said, im gonna spend 35$ and get my 2 free things, end of story. Oh well. I have 8 things now. So then we went to Victoria Secrets to get some love spell for my mom and this lady bombarded us and said i could get the purse that had 3 different love spell items for 20$. That was quite a deal since the perfume would have cost 20$ by itself. So i got that and me and my dad literally had 75c left between the 2 of us lol.

So we go home for about 2 hours and go to the gym at 3:30 and shower and then go eat downtown at Panera. It was SO GOOD. I wanted a bread bowl with soup, but they were out of bowls so i got soup and a casear salad that was great. The guy that took our order was cute too. Then we got a bagel for breakfast for tomorrow and a coffee. And i was gonna go see a movie with Ashley and Jillian but everything to see was either on already or too late so i didnt go and im here now.

Oh yeah and my dad mentioned that at UTC, if im out alone at night and dont feel safe, i can go to a corner on campus and push a special button and the campus police will come get me and drive me to my apartment. Isnt that awesome? And then he said they would do that if u were drunk too. They wouldnt ask questions or report u, they'd just take u home. I thought that was pretty cool.

Today was poo...

Well i had quite an interesting day today. So i wake up around 3:30 or 4 tossing and turning. Well once im awake, i realize my head is about to explode. The worst headaches ever are the ones u have when u wake up. I havent had one in a while though. Well i wake up again at 6 and my alarm doesnt go off till 6:30, but i got up anyway cause it was pointless to go back to sleep when i was in pain and had to pee real bad. Well since i feel so bad, i go and get some tylenol and my dad heard me and said hey and i told him i was feeling like poo. I go and brush my teeth and all and i dont even care what i look like cause i put all my hair up, bangs and all and had mascara and cover up on only. I also wore my ugly yellow shirt i hate. So it was poo day.

So i go downstairs and fix some cereal cause i know its not good to take medicine on an empty stomach. I lay on the couch and watch CNN and he my cereal a little bite at a time. It kinda made me sick but i choked it down. It made me feel like i was gonna throw up. Well around 7, i just thought there was no way i could make it to school or drive. So i go upstairs and lay down and go back to bed in my uniform and all. I was like, if i feel better, i'll just go in late. I didnt think my dad would really care.

So i slept for about an hour and woke up and my dad was kinda surprised to see me lol. I was felt a little better but my head still hurt. I could tell it would be a headache that wouldnt go away until the next day. But i went on to school and got there about 8:40 or so. So i was counted absent in Bible. But i went the rest of the day and didnt feel any better. My dad had told me if i felt worse to call him. So after lunch i just gave up and called. It was one of those headaches that hurts and pounds when u walk. So then it made me feel dizzy to bend down. I dunno. I think it was because i dreamed i met Bush at the high school office last night lol.

But i came home about 1 and took a nap. I took some more medicine and felt better but my head still hurts now. Ive missed 4 classes in 1st and last period now. All unexcused.

Me and dad went to Captain D's tonight. It was so good. I cant go to the footballl game tonight since its at FCA. Me and my dad always go but hes got something to do with work and didnt wanna chance going, so were not going. I couldnt get a ride either. But i dont really wanna drive 3 hours and sit in the rain and cold and possibly lose. People wouldnt be back till 1 or later. Im listening to it online right now. Its Coach brown and Mr Greer. Its so funny to hear Coach brown. I'll have to bother him on Monday lol.

Im going Christmas shopping tomorrow! WOO!

Football Baby!

We won the game last night 41 to 8. Woo! It was so funny, someone's dad took a bbs helmet, pants and football jersey and stuffed it. He put it on a pole so u could hold it up, and he put a sign on it that said, "Another Buc recruited from Whutwell." It was so great. I sat with Jillian and Spenser. He's so funny. He kept screaming the whole time lol. We play friendship christian next week, there. Thats poo too cause my dad is duty manager at work and wont go up there cause he might get paged. So i have to find a ride. I might ride with matt's parents. They always go and dont care to take me since they live right down the street.

My grandparents, Adam, my cousin, Andrew and Uncle all came over today. Andrew just turned 19, is in the National Guard witht the 278th and is going to Camp Shelby tomorrow to prepare for Iraq in 2 weeks. I didnt even know my grandparents and uncle, who lives on the coast of NC were coming. It took him 14 hours to get here just to eat. Well anyway it was very sad. We all said a special prayer for him and me, mom and granny all cried. He reminds me so much of JJ on American Dreams. Just his face and hair and mannerisms and all. If u dont watch the show, JJ is about 19 or 20 and joined the marines. On the show hes in Vietnam. And i just love how today was all about death. My uncle, who always thinks he owns our house and us personally, just took over to do the prayer. And after Andrew had left, he randomly goes, yeah theres a chance he might not come back. Thanks. That makes me feel real good. And for some reason my grandmother just loves to comment on my cats dying. Whenever she pets them, she always says, its gonna be a shame when something happens to those cats. Thanks. She said it today and last week too. People keep bringing death sooner than its suppose to be here.

Oh yeah and i didnt mention that the other day i lost my Kerry pin somewhere at school and i go into 3rd period on thursday and megan applewhite goes, Cortney i should burn this, but i decided to give it back to you, and she pulled out my pin! I was so happy! She said she found it by the conference room lol. I was like thank u! I was just gonna make another one if i couldnt find it lol. Yeah but while i was taping it on, Reed decided to put his 2 cents in like he always does. He keep talking smack, and decided to be real cute and take some paper and make his own pin that he taped on. So we sit back down and he just wont stop talking about my pin and Kerry. Even Anne told him to be quiet and leave me alone. So finally i just let him have it. I remember saying, You talk more than anyone i know. I think i said something along the lines of I dont think i was talking to you or asking u for your input and something about shutting your mouth and whatnot. I dont know since it was last week, but i remember everyone went DOOOOO real loud like the guys always do. I was so mad. I could feel my heart going 90 miles a minute after i had said it. I just sat there. He sits next to me too. Mrs Hood said one of us needed to move. He didnt say anything to me or anyone for the rest of class.

We had our first play off game last night. We won 42 to 7, but we played like poo the first quarter. The other team scored and i said to Jillian, "Goll, why don't they just give the ball to Matt Peardon?" Not 10 seconds later he's in the endzone lol. It was so cold though. It was in the 40's but felt colder. Im glad i wore my coat and had a blanket. Me and Jillian huddled together for body heat. Oh yeah and she had Jessica's phone and i saw her background was a picture of Bush and said Bush/Cheney 04 and when she sat back down, I took my phone out and compared them to her. I had John Edwards on my background lol. She laughed cause she said she took a pic of her computer too lol.

Well im kinda bored. Im looking at John Edwards stuff right now. I realized yesterday that the Biltmore is in NC and he lives there! And i told Mrs Hood and she goes, cortney, the biltmore is on the TN/NC line and he lives on the coast on the other side of the state lol. Dang, but then i remembered my rich uncle lives on an island in NC! So im gonna see how close they are to each other. Oh yes and last night I saw a Kerry sign on the corner down from school next to the gas station and i told my dad i wanted it for my scrapbook and gov. project. So after the game he said he'd let me get it and he makes a Uie in the middle of the road and stops in the turning lane and i jump out and run over and snatch it out of the ground and trot back lol. It was one of the last ones. YEAH! I was so excited! Im gonna try and find the democratic election office and go see if they have any free stuff left. Oh yeah and im thinking about wearing my Kerry pin for the next 4 years instead of 1 b/c he is in office 4 years. I dunno. Gotta think that one over.

Well anyway the meeting for the Italy trip is today, im not going on the trip but they like alumni to go to the meeting so im going. I get a pin and Karen and Christie are coming! YAY!

Oh yeah, i got into UTC.

Election

Well guys, yes its over and the outcome is not what i wanted. John Kerry did not win. I have to stare at the same ugly face and hear that voice for another 4 years. Yay. This poor country. I'm more worried about the country than Kerry losing, well both actually cause there both important. More soldiers still in Iraq, the draft might come back, higher taxes, more countries hating us and more jobs lost. Oh yeah and did I mention that when i was talking to my dad about the election as a whole and explaining stuff to him he said he didn't know who he would vote for b/c he didnt like things about both of them. And with Bush he said that he thinks he will probably try to get rid of TVA. It is one of the last big government run organizations/companies left and he said he thinks Bush will get tired of funding it and sale it off in shares. That means no more job. If that man makes my dad lose his job hes had for almost 30 years, i will personally shoot him.

Well to win, either candidate had to win 2 of the big states, Pennsylvania, Flordia and Ohio. Well Kerry won PA and Bush won FL and Ohio by 400,000 votes the next morning. Man I was almost in tears. I knew i would be eaten alive at school. Well on election day, i wore my navy skirt, white polo and a red flag shirt underneath, with the sleeves and bottom sticking out to be patriotic. And then i wore flag earrings and then patriotic sandals that ended up being FLIP FLOPS. Yes they were flip flops and i didnt even think about it till i got to school and Tudor noticed. Anne said i was a walking oxy moron lol. Oh and it dawned on me that i need to make cupcakes for such an important event! So i went and looked to see what we had and we had an off brand cake mix, that was ok. And we had Xmas cupcake wrappers that looked patriotic from a far cause they had stars on them and then i used chocolate icing. Well then i put little metal looking sugar balls on all of them with sprinkles and spelled out either a K or a B with their parties' color and i mixed the sprinkles for 3 that said USA. Those stupid things took so long to make. I wonder how many little balls i put on those things. Oh well.

Well since i didnt have an actual Kerry pin, i drew my own and lamenated it and taped it on for the day. And i knew doing this that i would be attacked viciously at school, which i was. I think the best comment was from Tres who called me a lesbian baby killer. I though that one was pretty good. And all day i was so excited and was running around all pumped. I so cannot wait till 2008. Then i'll be at UTC and can do something political and i even talked to Mrs Hood about it and she told me how to get on the candidate's campaign. That would be so amazing. This election has made me want to get into politics even more now. I had pondered the idea for a while and all and ive decided im gonna major in education and minor in political science. I really wanna do something political, but then i'll have a steady job being a teacher if that doesnt work out.

I was asking my dad if politicians need like a college degree in political science and all this stuff and he goes, "Cortney, look at Arnold Schwarzenegger." That was a very good point. If people like you and you have money, thats about all ya need. The thought of living in DC doesnt really thrill me that much though. I'd be scared of an attack. I guess if i really want it then i have to make sacrifices. Well anyway at school on Wednesday, no one had a definite winner yet but everyone had predicted it would be Bush b/c of the voting. Well they finally announced a winner and i swear talked about/came up to me like someone had died. I heard alot of "Cortney, i'm so sorry." And Megan G told me that when they found out he won in 4th period, they all cheered and then everyone went, "Oh poor Cortney. I hope she's ok." Its good people were nice to me about it. Well then i had a few who werent. I had a little jack ass by the name of Reed Hayes come about 10 inches from my face and yell BUSH. Well then come to find out in Pre Cal that Mrs Hood chewed him out about something, so that made me happy. So i went in and asked her and she said in 2nd period he was jumping around screaming Bush and everything else and she said she took off her glasses and got in his face and chewed his butt out. I laughed so hard. She even said he was a jerk.

Well since the election is over, Kerry does go back to the Senate which is great, but Edwards doesnt. I wanted to cry about that one. I wont get to see his pretty face as much. His wife also has cancer. And i have decided, i do not approve of this election, so i am protesting it. I am going to wear my Kerry/Edwards pin everyday for the rest of the year. Chad Mynatt does it for the uniform by wearing his grey shirt everyday, why cant i do it with the election?