Belly Buttons!

aaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! I got my bellybutton pierced!!!!! ahahhhh!!!!! Ok I wasn't suppose to go today but I did anyway b/c I could wait until next saturday! lol! So I was suppose to go with Spurling and I called and she said her mom was going to some wedding and she couldnt go. So she called me back and said she might be able to go she just had to make sure it was ok with her dad. So I was gonna meet her and she was gonna be late anyway, so I went ahead and did mine. So as we were nearing the place I could feel my stomach get nervous go into knots lol. So we got there and the place was how would you say, "not a good atmosphere" lol. The guys had lots of tattoos and piercings, which I expected. I think it would be odd if they didnt have them. So we had to sign some stuff and show my dad's drivers license. So he took me to a backroom down the hall and I sat in a seat. And I asked if it was gonna hurt? and the guy said it would feel like a hard pinch. So I stood up and he put 2 dots for him to see where he would pierce it, and the pen hurt! it was like a permanant pen thing and it was pointy so it kinda hurt. So then he cleaned it with alcohol and I think he said he was gonna like poke it so I would know what it would feel like, and I couldnt see, but I saw him push it in and I didnt feel anything! It didnt hurt at all! And I was in shock, I was like was that it? ANd he goes yep. And I go are u serious???? ANd he put the ring in. Im kinda mad though b/c I couldnt pick my ring! Its just a plain silver hoop with a ball for the closure. I dunno why they didnt have different ones. But as soon as I go to the mall, i'm going to buy a diamond one. I have to wash it 2 or 3 times a day for 2 weeks and I can take it out in a month, but he said the longer I keep it in the better, so I think im gonna wear it for like a month in a half or 2 months. It's kinda bleeding some but not much at all and its kinda sore, but im good. Its worth it! it was only 35$ too! So I got it done and this girl came in and was gonna get hers done, so me and dad talked to her for a few minutes. And we waited for Spurling, so we waited like 10 mins or so and she got there. And her mom was like your both insane lol it was so funny. ANd I showed her and stuff, and she was like scared. But it didnt hurt at all so its no biggie. Im gonna call her and see what she says about it. Well me and Jillian are in love with TEAL! aaahhh!!!! hottness!!!! Next week is homecoming! yay! Monday is tshirt day (homecoming shirt), tuesday is cartoon day, Wed-Group day, thurs-Celebrity (theme), fri-blue and gold day. Im doing monday and friday for sure but im not doing tues and i dont know about the others. Well im gonna go, my bros having his party tonight and I think hes having alot of people come! lol! Bye!

Tongue

Well this week has been pretty funny. Especially yesterday lol. At lunch, me, Hope, and Jillian cracked up all lunch. It was so funny! We were like high! All the sudden Hope starts talking about ******, and when he came over to my house after football practice with my brother and took a shower in my bathroom! lol! We cracked up! He used my shampoo, body wash and sponge! And they thought that was the funniest thing ever b/c i was being gross about dirt and stuff lol. And me and Jillian have a thing for him. Were like in love with him. She asked me if he did something at my house and he did and she like freaked. It was so funny! He looked good doing it too! lol! haha jillian!!!!!!!! hottness.com lol (tongue licks lips! lol!)

I am scared now.

I am very scared. Were going to war and everyone knows it. Were going to strike back, very soon, I know we are. All I have to say is, I don't think they know what they got themselves into. Or for that matter, who they're dealing with. I am an American citizen and always will be, i'm not backing down that easily. I might be scared, but i'm p.o.ed as h**l. I'm not for killing people, but they killed us for no reason and it says in the Bible killing and murder are different and it's not considered killing in war. And were going to war, so were not killing. I hope they find Osama Bin Laden and beat the crap out of him. I hope they torture him and all the people who are happy we lost thousands of lives. That's wrong. I don't want innocent people to die over there, I really dont. I think the people who are happy we got bombed, those helping the ones who bombed us, and the ones who bombed us, should all be killed in battle. They must be pretty mad at us, for them being a small country and all, for them to come over here and kill citizens of the United States of America. We are the strongest nation in the world, and most popular/famous. Only around 9,000-11,000 of our people died, and that was with only 1 attack, and we have about 300 million+ here. They have alot less than that, and 1 attack from us can wipe out their entire country. They don't know what they got themselves into, and there gonna be sorry and there gonna pay. Friday was national prayer/rememberance day in USA. The highschool and middleschool had an assembly in the gym at 2:30 for prayer and singing. After it was over Megan A. was crying. I was so happy for her. I know ure like why are u happy she was crying? i'll tell u why. It is an honor and a privelege to live in and be a citizen in the United States, and I think it finally hit her how she lucky and everyone else is, in this nation. It has not hit me yet how lucky I am and honestly, sometime in the future I think i'm going to breakdown. All of this that has happened, hasnt sunk in yet. And I think it will very soon. So if everyone at school sees that im hysterically crying and cant control myself, they'll know that it sunk in and hit me of all thats happened. War lasts a long time, I might be joining the Navy sooner than I think. God Bless America.

Am I gonna die?

Am I gonna die soon? I know our country is being tested. We were bombed. 4 times today. 2 in New York and 1 time in DC and 1 time in Pennsylvania. Im not gonna give u all the details about today cause Ive heard them 5000 million times. 2 planes flew into the World Trade Center today. 1 hit 1 of them and then another hit the other tower. And they both fell over, crumbled into pieces. Like 10,000 people died. DC was bombed at the Pentagon. A side of it was hit and crumbled down. And then another plane was found 80 miles away from Pittsburgh. President Bush is suppose to speak tonight at 9 about it. Were all scared. We watched it all during 2-4 period. We all got scared when we found out about the pentagon, or at least i was. Its WW3 beginning. We think its the Palestinines. And someone bombed Afghanistan like 45 mins ago! omgosh im scared. And we think there bombing the big cities, and Atlanta is huge. And its only an hour away. Were all praying. Our country needs help. Its in God's hands now.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while.

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I've been busy! Well let's see I talked to Sean twice. Like 9 people have told me that Jessica has been all over him like white on rice, and I asked her and she said she likes 18 other guys and she wont go out with him. RIGHT NOW IM LISTENING TO BSB'S NEW SONG DROWNING!!!!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!! ITS LIKE THE 5TH TIME IVE LISTENED TO IT TODAY! I sent it to Hope and Jillian and Jillian told me she loves it and Hope hasnt said yet. Just tell me if u wanna hear it and i'll send it to you. Here are the lyrics! YES! AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! SURGE OF BACKSTREET ENERGY!!!!!!!!!
Drowning
Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Coz you are my survival
Now hear me say

I can't imagine
Life without your love
Even forever don't seem like long enough

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
Coz I don't own the safety of floating freely in your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
Coz only you can save me
Oh can't you see

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever don't seem like long enough

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
Coz you're the air that I breathe

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Everytime I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

You'll be hearing it very soon from me at school. lol. Tuesday is the day Around the World BSB video comes out!!!!! YES! Im going to buy it!!!! Then on Sept. 17 or 19 TRL is gonna world premiere the video! YES! im gonna see if i can miss volleyball practice to see the video lol. Well this weekend I went on my Weekend in the Wilderness retreat! Well I came home yesterday early b/c I got sick. I went to bed with a headache but I didn't worry about it cause I always get headaches, but it got so bad i couldnt sleep. I woke up and it was pounding! I had to sit up to sleep b/c it made me nausous to lay down. So i would sit there and take my pillow and lean against it with my hand proping it up. Well that worked some cause my head didnt hurt as much but my hand kept slipping when I was about to doze off. Then I would lay back down and I would get nausous again and sit back up. Then I got so sick from it I threw up 2 times. I didn't throw up anything but spit though b/c I didnt have any food in my stomach. Then I got cold and wrapped myself up in a blanket and I finally got sleepy so i layed down I amazingly slept. So Amy took me home since she was leaving anyway. Well lemme tell u what we did while I was there. Ok now our entire youth is all M/S! I said I felt old b/c everyone was younger than me! lol. Well we 6 h/s girls and like 10 h/s guys but thats b/c 29 more people came on the late bus that night! So we had more later on. Well we were put in clans and there were 10 clans and I was in Righteousness. And me and Adam P. were the only h/s in there! but we got 2 more on saturday from the late bus. Adam is a senior and he's hott! Woah is he hott! Well anyway we played all kinds of different games. And on saturday we played a game that morning where ure team got like 9 slips of paper so each person got one in ure team and they said like no legs, no arms, unconscious, blind or a mixture of them all. And then 2 or 3 people in ure group got one that said Healthy. Now what u had to do was the 3 healthy's had to go find the people that were hurt and carry them back someone! lol! Or they could drag themselves back if they could. Well I was healthy, my leader was, Adam was, and Blaine was. So we had to get rid of one of them so of course I had to lol. And I didnt want to b/c I wanted to carry someone b/c no one can lift me lol. Well I got no legs lol. But I got lucky, b/c where we were I was close to my team so I could try and drag myself back. So I tried but it killed my hands lol. So Adam came and got had to carry me back. Ok now I was like you can't carry me! lol! But he made me get on his back so he could carry me. And I was like amazed he could carry me and plus he walked pretty fast too! I was like i'm glad I lost that 15 pds.! lol! Our team was 3rd when I left out of 10 and the winning team gets a prize, so I hope we won. Well i've gtg! bye!

I spaz out way too much at school cause of our waiter lol.

omgosh i have sean news galore! ok first off i talked to him! Yes I know im cool lol. I was walking with ashley after lunch and all the sudden hes like next to her and im like freaking out cause hes so close. Then they were talking and ashley goes sean this is cortney, cortney this is sean and we both go hey and they started laughing lol. Then like 2 days later jessica said she was talking to him and was like u need to come talk to cortney, u need to give her a hug! lol! And she said he was like yah i'll do that, i might surprise her after school lol. So she told me and I spazed out big time. And that day after lunch I was walking with her and we stopped and she grabbed sean and goes, here she is give her a hug lol. She she grabbed his shirt and pushed him next to me and he put his hand around my waist! SCORE! it was a groovilicous side hug man! And Hope said she saw my face when he did and she said I looked like all happy and drooling lol. And then ashley told me that she talked to him on the net and he said he liked jessica and didnt know if he was gonna ask her out. So for some reason ashley thinks it wont make me feel bad to tell me, so she tells me and right after i got off the phone i started crying and cried for like 15 mins. and I was trying not go cause when I cry anywhere near bedtime I look like i've been beaten the next morning! My eyes get huge bags under them and they swell up so it looks like i cant see. So of course they were when I got up and everyone was like whats wrong cortney? And I was like omgosh I dont wanna talk about it or i'll cry again. And I asked jessica and she said she didnt like him at all and she thinks he doesn like her and she would never go out with him, she wouldnt do that to me. Omgosh such a relief came from me. Its like when ure under pressure and u can let out a sigh, it was like that. And then I was gonna get jessica to spend the night with me after the game ( we lost to Whitwell, help me) but she couldnt cause she had to go to her dads for the weekend, but he said I could come over there. So mom said I could and i was going to and then the next morning before school she said she talked to my dad and they decided i couldnt b/c they didnt know her parents! omgosh how retarded. I got so mad. So then after school me and jessica were walking to the HS and he was walking out so she yells at him and he comes over and I was so close to him omgosh i was like cortney dont make a fool of ureself lol. And she goes whats that in ure hair and it was his birthmark! And she goes u were right, pointing at me and i go yeah. So i kinda talked to him lol. So were gonna try again later this weekend. And so were at the game and we were suppose to meet sean and he was like an hour late lol. But we we hung out with him all night! ALL NIGHT! omgosh ( i say that too much eh?) well anyway we talked some, we didnt know really what to say to each other. Well then he said he was going bowling and out to eat with his friends and he said we could go cause jessica really wanted to go bowling and i knew i wouldnt be able to go ever in my life b/c of my parents so i didnt bother asking. We were gonna get to ride in his car too! im gonna see if we can all do something later! sorry so long! bye!