Why do I have an awful life??

Why is it that everything is my fault??? Why is it mine??? It's not my teachers, its not my friends, its not my cats, but it's MY fault. Can someone please explain to me why everything is my fault? Cause i certainly dont know why. It seems my parents think that all the wrong my brother does to me, is my fault. So all his sins arent his, but there mine. That doesnt add up. I dont do anything to that horrible person i have to call 'brother', but yet when i tell my parents how he's left bruises on me and phyiscally picked me up to move me, they say, what did u do to provoke him? And i'm just like what the crap is this??? I didn't do anything, i was sitting in my room watching tv and he walks in and starts harrassing me. But no, 'he' doesn't do anything. He's a wonderful child, cause he's the oldest. He's mr. perfect. WELL I HATE HIM. Ive always hated him. And I ALWAYS will hate him. He can't leave this house for college fast enough. And it sucks b/c he has another 2 whole weeks of break after i start school. So i have to put up with him another month from now. Yay. Be glad u all dont have a horrible family. Im going to bed.

Good news.

I have the grooviest news!!! I got my permit!!!! Yay!!!!! Finally!!!! We went this morning to the Cleveland one to get my permit instead of Bonnie Oaks cause we thought it would be alot less crowded. We were wrong. We got there at 10 till 11 and people filled every seat. We had to take a number, and we were number 72. And the wait was supposed to be 2 hours. But that was ok cause we had planned on going to shop for shoes. So we went and stumbled around Cleveland and ate lunch at Chik-Fil-A cause my mom was dying to pee, and she wanted something to drink. But we decided to eat lunch anyway cause it was near 11:30. And when we first pulled into Chik-Fil-A, I saw this cute guy with light brown/SUPER curly hair. I was like omgosh he looks like Aqua!!!!!! I got all excited and I saw him again inside lol. And then we went to the mall, but I didnt find any shoes, im too picky. So we went back and they were on # 56. So we waited another hour, so in all it was 3 hours. So I went and took the test and i only missed 2!!!! And i only had to answer 24 questions out of 30 cause i had already passed and there was no point in answering the other questions. I was like yay!!!! So I went and got my pic made for my card and it looks great!!!! Its my first real good pic of me without my braces. I look so different in my pics now lol. My face looked wider, but looked cleaner, more pure if u know what i mean. It didnt have all this metal in the way lol. I am so happy and i can stop studying lol. But now I actually have to learn how to drive! AAhhhh!!! I dont want to drive man, I want a chauffeur! lol. I'd rather be drove around and sing to the radio than have to drive lol. I get highlights tomorrow too. I was trying to get em on Saturday but my mom made the appointment for tomorrow, but thats ok. I'll ttyl its starting to storm! bye!

Woo! Fun day.

I had a great day man. I just went to the movies with Jillian. We went and saw Austin Powers 3. It was SSOOOO funny. Everyone was cracking up. And it was as full as it could be. There were like 10 people that came in on the side and they had to leave b/c there wasnt anymore room. Me and my mom had to park at Pennys and go through b/c we couldnt find a spot in the front. So we walked through and saw Jillian and her mom waiting and they were looking for us to come in the front so they were looking that way. And she saw me and i smiled and she was like OMGOSH!!!!!! She couldnt get over my teeth. lol. She was like im gonna stare at your teeth the whole time, so dont worry if u see me looking at u lol. I was like yay i look pretty now lol. And then i saw Ashley S and Jessica in the movie thing. I knew she wanted to go see the movie too but i didnt know she was gonna go tonight lol. So she was like AAHHHH Ure teeth!!!! lol! And they went to the same movie we did and we sat with them. We got in there and we were waiting for the movie to start and I saw this hott guy in the bottom part near the front with spiked hair (it looked red too! Woo! Redheads rule!) and he had on a black shirt. He looked cute from where i was but i never saw him on the way out and i was like crap lol. He looked between 25-39 lol. Not 40 for sure lol. I know i know ure probably thinking, Cortney u are so gross, but hey if ure hott, ure hott. I dont care if ure 1-100, if ure hott, ure hott. lol. Oh i was so hoping during the previews they would play the LOTR preview for the Two Towers, and they did!!!! I got all excited! lol! Even though I have it on here and I can watch it anytime i want, i still got excited lol. Jillian and Ashley and Jessica all started talking about me about it lol. Well im gonna go! If I have anything else to say, i'll write it tomorrow! Bye! Good night!

Hi ho! (u know?? Kermit says that) I had a wonderful day yesterday. Me and mom went to the mall and i exchanged my pants for a longer length at Lane Bryant and i went to the Icing and I bought Christmas presents!!!! U probably think im crazy but i bought 21 things for 15$! No joke. They had there get 10 things for 5$ sale, so i got 20 things for 10$! So now i have almost all my Christmas gifts for my friends!!! They had super cute jewelry too. And I went through this box that had purses on sale, and im a purse freak like Hope is a lipgloss freak lol so i was ecstatic. So i was rummaging through and found some super cute ones that were like fancier ones that i loved. But then i saw one that was black with a little strap and it had 500000 compartments in it and it was tiny too! But then i saw the same purse but it was pink! So i got all giddy and bought it. And when i got my receipt i looked and the purse was 6.99 and then i didnt know it but it was on sale 50% off!!! So it was only 3.50! I was like dang! If i had known that i would of gotten another one. And then we went to Target and i got a lamp thats purple thats super cute for my desk and i got school supplies. And yesterday i started printing out BSB pics to make my binders! yay! fun fun!!!! Bye!

Good evening (ha megan). I had a totally BORING day. Me and mom were supposed to go to the mall today and go exchange my jeans and go to the Icing and to Target and then my brother decides he wants to go cause hes 'bored'. So my mom said he could go and i was so PO. Cause he never goes shopping and I hate it when he does go b/c I cant sit up front and we have to listen to his crap music and he always comments and acts like a piece of crap (other 'word' for crap). So I said no i wasnt gonna go. She promised me first. All they were doing was getting bed sheets or whatever for college and he doesnt go to college for another month and a half and I need school stuff and i start in less than 3 weeks!!!!! What crap is that????? But unfortunately we have to go tomorrow. It made me so mad. Cause all i could do was sit in the house and watch tv and read Lord Of The Rings (reading LOTR wasnt too bad lol Elf man). And I couldnt even walk! Cause they took 5 hours and they werent home and it was 2:30 almost 3 before they got home and that is too late. So I had a crap day. Hey ya know whats weird? I've had a Lord Of The Rings dream the past 2 nights. The first one was like a nightmare though. I dreamed there were Orcs everywhere and we thought there was one in the house, named like Ted Edson or Ed or something it was weird lol and it was pitch black and I was trying to sleep but I kept thinking the one in the house was gonna kill me. And then last night I had one about Gandalf. Something like we were driving in a car in the backseat or something. Then we were on a boat, then we went to a volleyball game and I was playing and it was girls against guys and there was a guy that kept calling me fat. And then I left my wallet and something else there and I was all worried b/c mom would get mad at me for leaving it. And then I woke up and was relieved I hadnt left my wallet lol. Wacko dreams huh??? I dont mind the LOTR dreams at all though. I think im having them because ive read the 1st half of the Two Towers in 4 days!!!! It took me like a month to read it when I first got it. I think its because ive read right before bed. So Im gonna do that again lol. I wanna have one about my Elf man!!!! Woo, i would make myself stay asleep for that one. lol.


Well I have some good I love BSB writing news. I have almost 67,000. And I think I have decided i am going to write the rest of them in a small format like i occasionally do. Then when i have like 5000 left I will write regular size. See if I do that then I will only have to write 9 more pages!!!! yay!!!! See it will be front and back as 1 page of course, so thats 4 pages of small print, which should be 7,000 a page, cause there should be 3500 a side. See what i mean??? So that would be 28,000 and then in all it would be 95,000!!! Perfect for the last ones!!! And then I would only have to have 5 more pages, 500 front and back, so that would be 1,000, and that would be 5 pages so 5,000 and im at 100,000!!!! Then im done!!!! A little more than 2 years!!!! Woah, its been worth it. I have to marks on my fingers from my pens too lol. Well i have written WAY too much so im gonna go and get LOTR wallpapers now! bye!

Good evening. I went to the dentist today. Not fun, i had to wait a while. And then when i got in there, the lady was cleaning and found a piece of cement stuck under my gum! And of course it had to be the tooth that I had surgery on, which hurts like anything still. And then I got a cavity!!!!! Ive only had 1 cavity in my life and that was like in 4th or 5th grade. He was sticking the pointy thing in my teeth and he stuck one of my bottom teeth and it stuck there lol. I was like thats not good. And my mom is working in registration! yay. I was just thinking, NNNOOO, I dont want her in the HS lol. But shes working in MS. And I was like no i have to stay there the whole time and do nothing, but i realized hey Jillian is gonna have to be there lol. And she is so i was like yay! And she was really happy too. We'll have to stumble around for 2 hours lol. I hope we have some classes together. We can only have 3 together at the most. That sucks but thats ok. It can only be Geometry, Chorus, and English. Cause we both have different Bible classes, she takes french, i take spanish, shes taking History, im taking PE/Health, shes taking Bio and im taking Chemistry. So yay. But thats ok. Well i dont have much more to say, so im gonna go. Bye!

I'm scared now.

Omgosh my I just read my email from my Irish BSB pen pal and she asked me if i had heard the BSB news??? And she said that Brian asked Nick to leave the BSB! And of course I thought it was a rumor as always, but she said she did too until she said Brian confirmed it! Jillian said theres nothing on Mtv so Im praying nothing comes on the news. Help me.

School.

U know what's scary??? School starts in like 19 days!!!!! aahhhh!!!! Too soon!!!! I feel like we havent been out 2 1/2 months!!! Hey I did go get some school stuff the other day. We went to Pennys and I got 2 collared shirts. A black one and a dark green one. And we went into Lane Bryant and I got a pair of jeans cause they had them out everywhere. They had good flare on em too, but I have to take em back and get another pair. I didn't know they had long and short on the tags. And of course me I picked up the petite for length and there too short for me when I sit down. So i have to go back and get long. And I went and looked in Rack Room for some shoes to buy later but they didnt have anything really like WOW I HAVE TO BUY THOSE! So I guess i'll have to go and look elsewhere! I gotta start getting BSB pics for my binders too. Fun fun. Well im gonna go! Im looking for Legolas Wallpapers on Webshots! bye!

LOTR

Hello again everyone! Or anyone who reads my little journal lol. As u can see i'm still adding Lord Of The Rings quizzes on here. Those are the best man. I started reading The Two Towers again yesterday. I'm on Chapter 3. I have to start reading to refresh my memory for when the movie comes out I wont be lost lol. I downloaded the trailor for TTT (The Two Towers). IT LOOKS AMAZING. My hottie looks better than ever man with his bow and arrows lol. I can't wait for August 6th, thats when The Fellowship Of The Ring comes out on video. I wanna go and buy it if it's not sold out. I have been looking for Legolas Icons, fun fun. HOT HOT HOT. I downloaded my 2nd Legolas screensaver too. Yay. Well i'm gonna go. Not much to say. Bye!

Good news about school!

Woo! I am one lucky duck lol. Yesterday Mrs. Taylor called and she said there was a prob with my schedule. She said since I put down accelerated geometry, they prefer you to have a C+ and I had a C- all year, so im regular geometry, which doesnt really matter to me anyway. And then she said that since I put down accelerated Bio, that they only have it during 3rd period i think and since im taking chorus, the only time they have PE is 3rd or 6th period and she said I have Chorus 6th so i have to have PE in 3rd, which would knock me down to regular Chemistry. So I was like poo i cant take accelerated chemistry and i have to have PE in the early morning. But then I was like WOO Cause that means im in Concert chorus cause thats 6th period!!!! I was worried I wasnt gonna get in that class man. Groovy. So she said I could choose what I want to do and im gonna keep chorus for sure, so im not gonna take accelerated chemistry. And she said im having Geom. during 5th period. Just like last year, yay. Well im gonna go! bye!

I got my braces off!

AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS AMAZING!!!!!!!! OMgosh I still can't believe it!!!!!! I woke up this morning and screamed its Tuesday!!!!! And when we got there my mom didnt even park, i jumped out and ran in lol. I sat down and I thought it would take a while, cause i thought they were gonna take the wires off, take the bands off, then scrape all the brackets off, but they didnt. Actually all they did was take them all off at once. She popped all the brackets off and the wire with it, so it was all attached. Then they scraped all the glue off, then brushed them. I got to keep my braces too lol. Then they gave me this crap mouth piece I get to wear forever. Well not actually forever, but 8-12 weeks. Its an impression of my mouth, it looks like a football mouth piece. I cant talk in it either. And I have to wear as much as I can for these 3 days then 2 hours a day and at night. Then I get my retainer. YAY! MORE FUN! But I dont care man. They all said I have beautiful teeth. I kept smiling all day. I would stare at my mom smiling until she'd look at me and she'd laugh lol. When they first took them all off, I thought i was feeling my gums, not my teeth, it still feels like that too! It was nice not to clean my teeth after I ate too. yay!!!! I forgot my camera, but im gonna take pics in a few mins and get my mom or dad to take my camera to Walgreens and maybe get them back tonight. We went to the mall and I saw Lacie. I was hoping I would. We talked for a few mins about summer and dress code, and school. She looked at me and I was waiting for her to go HHUUUHHH!!!! U got ure braces off! But she didnt, she looked at me and goes, i thought there was something different about you lol. Jillian is dying to see, i cant wait to get my pics back to send to her. Were gonna go to the movies this week or next. Oh when we were at the mall, we were leaving through Pennys and we saw boxers that had ducks on them and they were wearing Leprechaun hats!!!!! And on the elastic it said Lucky Ducky! I flipped man and my mom bought them for me as a braces gift lol. Well I've already typed too much lol. I'll probably write more tonight anyway lol. bye!

Florida!

FLORDIA ROCKED MAN!!!!!!!! Omgosh me and Jillian were wild lol. We now officially like UPS men. We have family stalkers at our hotel. We love Moulin Rouge. Jillian thinks im insane about the Gap Troll, im stupid I know. I like taking people's parking spots. Enough said lol. I took your spot, Muahhhhh!!!!!

Tomorrow is the day!

Tomorrow i get to get up at 5:20! Yay!!!!! I wont sleep tonight either lol. I'll be dead when we go pick Jillian up tomorrow. Were gonna have a ball on the way there lol. Well im gonna go! bye!

Weeeee!

Hello again. It's almost the 4th of July!!!!! Yay!!!!! I can't wait! I'm gonna parade around in my Patriotic shirts and my slut jeans (haha, u know the ones with the inner thighs have American flag clothe on them.) I might paint my face too lol. I think were gonna go see fireworks. Im gonna make my parents go. 3 days till the beach! yay! well ttyl bye!

It's been a LONG time.

Well hello hello once again. It has been a long time hasnt it? Too long in fact. Half a year? Im not completely sure, i'll have to check in a few minutes. So whats going on with me? Ahh nothing much, just went to the ortho today. AND HE SAID I CAN GET MY BRACES OFF JULY 16!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Thats so amazing I cant believe it! Well, here's the thing. I go next thursday and there going to take my back bands off. Ya know all the metal round thingys around your back teeth that act as bracets??? Well I have 10 of those, so that might hurt some. Then I go back July 16 and get my wires and bracets off, so then it'll all be gone. And your probably wondering why is she getting it taken off in sections??? Well I have to wear a finishing piece. Which takes 4 weeks to get here, cause its coming from Wisconsin. So I wont need my bands, so i'll get those off. But if I get all my braces off, my teeth will move, and I cant have my retainer yet b/c I have to wear that piece for 10-12 weeks. So I'll wear the piece 2 hours a day and at night, then i think he said I can get my retainer. IM SO EXCITED!!!!! YAY!!!!!! Cant wait! Well what else can i say??? I cant wait for the beach jillian!!! Were gonna have a ball! Its a month tomorrow that we leave lol. Yay. Hey we'll have to take u clippin. lol. Bet you've never done that before. Its lots of fun. Well im gonna go and look at some more Irish shirts, bye!