Wow hey, I havent updated in a few days. I haven't had much to say. I'm sick of rain, thats for sure. I'm also sick of Chorus. That is a horrible class. I shouldn't even call it a 'class' cause its not. It's do whatever u want class. It's sad. I dread going in there. I do not wanna go on the Gatlinburg trip.

I'm thinking about what to say. 291 days till Return Of The King! YAY! I have a countdown clock on my desktop and it has the days, hours, minutes, and seconds and it has One Ring to rule them all scrolling at the bottom. And I have 4 skins to change it to, Gandalf, Aragorn, Gollum, and a Frodo and Sam one. It rocks man! Oh I heard that there is a Gollum toy! And it comes with 2 heads! One for Gollum and one for Smeagol and it comes with a toy fish! How cute!


Ok today in chorus, we watched The Emporerer's New Groove, which is a funny movie by the way, and I sat with Casey and Megan W. And I noticed a group of my friends in the back. And I saw 3 specific people all sitting next to each other. I looked at one of them and almost started crying. I miss her dearly. She is by far one of my closest friends and I just miss her. I miss talking to her about everything, I miss telling her every single detail that happens with Robby, I miss her jokes, I miss giving her hugs, and most of all I miss talking to her.


I think I talked more to her today than I have in 4 weeks, and I think I only said 15 words to her all day. I wanted to die today when she gave one of my friends a hug. She was going to her class and she said i'll see you later! and gave her a hug. I was just thinking," I want a hug too. " I haven't had one from her in a long time. I thought about just randomly going up to her one day and not saying anything and just giving her a hug but I don't think she would like that or know why I was doing it.


This friendship is NOT gonna be like one I had in 8th grade, but it looks like it's turning into that and I can't stop it. I've prayed about it and prayed about it and I will continue to pray about it until I have some sort of answer. I'm tired of it all. I don't know what to say or how to act when i'm around her and that's even if I am. It's small talk now. It's like a yeah or a hey, and that's the whole conversation. I try and start a conversation with her but I don't know what to say and even if I do she's talking with someone else about something more important. It's even harder cause we dont see each other. We only have 1 class together. I waved at her the other day and either she didn't see me or she just didnt wanna wave back cause I didnt get a response out of her. That hurt. Bad. I don't know what to do. I need help.

Ok I have one thing to write about. Adam came home this weekend and brought a friend. And this friend was hott. And I mean HOTT. His name is Jeff and he has a great accent and talks real slow. Woo he was great, but the best part is that he looks like Colin off Everwood! NO JOKE! When I first saw him, I was like omgosh dude, it's Colin's brother! lol. His hair is cut like his, but a lighter brown. Woo he look good. lol just thought I would mention that.


Grammy's are tonight! yay! MY MEN ARE GONNA BE THERE TOO!!!!!!!! Well there gonna be there, but the paper said something about Nick not being there with them, but going with Aaron I think. So I think he'll be there just not with the group, which is fine. He'll still be there lol. I can't wait to see them all! I've seen Kevin plenty of times from doing promotion for Chicago in NY and he looks GREAT but I wanna see Howie Bear and Bri and AJ!!!!!! AAHH!!!! AJ!!!!!!!!!! *screams VERY loud*.

Ok i'm SO ready for Spring now. I didn't think blue sky would ever appear on this earth again, but it came for a while today! We were so happy! Rain is poo! But now it's gonna monsoon outside, the wind is terrible. We can hear it against the house.


Me and my mom went to the mall today and Old Navy. At Old Navy I wanted to look at St. Patrick's Day stuff which they had. I got all excited cause they had this gorgeous shirt that said Shamrock in green and it was covered in glitter. I'm gonna go back and get it soon. And then I got one of those towels in a pack u know? U put it in water and it turns into a towel, well it turned into a rag actually lol. But then we went to Bath and Body and I got Ciara this really cute bag that had 5 different things in it. And then we went into The Icing. That is the hottest store I have EVER been in. It's like 85 in there. Well anyway the lady that works there is super nice, she told me I had pretty hair. Ok everyone and their brother tells me I have pretty hair. I turned in my work on friday in spanish and the sub said I had beautiful hair and I was like well thank u lol. But anyway there I got some gorgeous earrings for my Secret Sister. And as we walked out I saw Erika V working at the Service desk lol. She is SO pretty and nice it's not even fair. We talked to her for a few minutes and I told her I was looking for a job and she showed me the hiring book that has what stores are hiring so I was like woo! Dry Ice and Rack Room were in there so I got excited lol. But I asked the lady in the Icing if they were hiring and she mumbled something about applications and said they werent hiring. But I gotta tell Danielle cause we wanna try and apply at the same place so we can know someone when we work lol. But shes already 16..... I hope they hire at 15....

Ok read the italicized part.

A.J. McLean attended the Daredevil premiere in Los Angeles this week, where he told a MuchMusic correspondent that the Backstreet Boys would be recording soon. "We're going back into the studio either next month or the month after," said McLean. "We're a family. We've made a conscious promise that we're going to be together forever." AJ went on to talk about his continued sobriety, saying, "I'm still going to meetings and plugging in. Sober living is much better than partying." Of his delayed nuptials to singer Sarah Martin, AJ said, "We actually postponed the wedding because there's so much crazy stuff going on. But it's going to be great. She's a wonderful woman and I'm really looking forward to it."

Ok I have to say that article should shut alot of people up. I should print it out and take it to
school and post it on every available space I see.


Ok I wanna say some stuff about all the Michael Jackson specials.

Ok they really need to leave that poor man alone. He was all they talked about on Oprah today and they brought up some good points. I think they did trick Michael into answering some of the questions. I think he has had more than 2 face lifts and I DONT think he has some sick fetish with children. I can see how when he says he likes kids to sleep in his bed with him, how that could scare people but honestly come on. I mean what's the difference between that and me babysitting a 7 year old child and we watch movies laying on a bed and we fall asleep? I mean really people need to leave him alone. And what about if a child get scared during a storm or if they have a nightmare, the first thing they do is run to their parents room or to an adult and they want to sleep in their bed with them cause they feel safe. And people are saying well he's a grown man its wrong. Well for one, im almost a grown woman, I dont think its wrong if little kids wanted to sleep in my bed cause they were scared or anything else, do u think thats odd? Cause I personally dont. And two, he has the body of a 40 year old, but that doesnt mean he has the mind of one. He could still think hes 12 when he has kids over. So he probably doesnt see why people think what he's doing is wrong.


Ok on another note. I kinda got in trouble with Coach Pope today. I walked out of Spanish today and I was talking to Meenal and I heard Robby say something about she's causing trouble over there or something and then Coach Pope walked over and looked at me and I go what did I do? And he goes Robby said u were causing trouble. And I go omgosh he just randomly said that to get me in trouble! I'm not doing anything! And Robby CRACKED UP. He thought that was hilarious.


"Go, go, go, go, go, go Shorty it's your birthday. We gone party, like it's your birthday, we gone party like it's party and we don't give a **** about your birthday!"

Ok sorry I dont even know if thats the last line of that part but he says the F word and im guessing thats where it goes, but sorry it was stuck in my head.

I left school early today. I was about to fall over in my classes. I think my medicine made me drowsy. I took my sick medicine and then I took my headache medicine and I think those 2 made me drowsy. Woo i felt nice. My mom came and got me during Spanish.


I barely have any makeup work either! Thats wonderful! It seems I get VERY lucky when im out of school. Cause I come back and I have usually only a little bit of makeup work. It's nice. All I have to do is make up the little work I have at home. Theres really no need to be at school that day lol. I gave Emmy her David Schwimmer card today. She flipped out lol.


Well not much else to say.

Well I went to the wonderful doctor yesterday and I have Tonsillitis. We got there and I thought oh no im gonna have to wait here for 2 hours and then another hour in the actual room. But there was barely anyone there. It was wonderful. So we sat there like 15 mins and I read LOTR the whole time, (oh yeah i've got 2 chapters left in the first part of ROTK, so i'll start the second half tomorrow! yay!). So then we go to the back room and we sit there about 15 mins again.


And then Dr. Naik comes in and tells me about my tonsills again and how humongous they are and how I need to get them checked out again so I can possibly have them taken out. Ok heres the thing with my tonsills, there oversized. I know this. I've known this my whole life. My tonsills look swollen at their regular size. So if u looked at them u would think im sick, but thats the way they are normally! So yes I have oversized tonsills, so automatically every doctor under the sun thinks I need to have them out cause there huge and I snore. And I went to a doctor once before and insurance would cover most of the surgery but he said it would be fine if I had em out but I wouldnt die if i didnt. So then dad said we could go look again this summer to see about having them out. Joy.


And as u can see im at home today. I've had a headache since Friday and no im not exaggerating. So I guess i'll get to do makeup work tomorrow, fun.


I think I might go watch my LOTR extended DVD. Orlando and Billy will keep me entertained....

Ok I think it's offical that after every trip I go on, i come back sick. It ALWAYS happens. I thought I was gonna die yesterday. I got my wonderful 3 hours of sleep and I woke up and my throat was hurting. And then i've had a headache since friday. Oh and all day yesterday I had chills. During church service, I had to bounce my legs to keep my blood flowing cause it was the only way I could have some kinda warmth. And I slept the whole way home. Jillian slept in my lap part of the way. I don't think I realized how sick I was till i was in the car on the way home. I could actually hear myself talk and i did sound sick. Ahhh.

The trip was pretty fun though. I'm not gonna give a full story though cause I dont really feel up to typing that much. But here's a little recap:

1. I got 5 hours of sleep in 2 days

2. From Saturday and Sunday I ate probably 2 meals total

3. I got sick

4. I bought a claddagh ring, a bracelet, candy for my parents, a gift for Emmy, and I got an airbrushed tshirt that says Cortney (heart) Backstreet Boys. Yay i wanna wear my shirt.