So I'm pretty sad to say that I only have 2 weeks left of student teaching at Apison! I started thinking about last weekend and I was like, hmm...you know, I only have 3 weeks left and one of those weeks is very short. And then I got sad! I really am going to miss those boogers! I love them like my own children! And it makes it worse because I don't want to change schools and especially don't want to have a higher grade, 1st, 2nd or 3rd. Bah.

I've never had any experience with those ages and I know I need that. I've had lots of time with my 3-5 year olds and now I know I need some time with 7-9. We'll see what happens. I hope I love these new kids just as much as I love mine now. I know that I'll probably have to get there early, stay later, do more work, and have bus duty or something like that. Ah, i'm not looking forward to it. And then to top it off, I'm at this school longer because of the way the calendar is! So if I hate it, too bad. That sucks for me. But we'll see. I want to be optimistic about it.

Woah. This is weird. It says my last entry was 108 weeks ago. Ha! Is that possible? Apparently so. I'd for some reason gotten so lazy that I decided I wasn't going to write anymore for a long time or ever for that matter. I think I just decided yesterday that I might need to start writing my life down again. Don't know why, but I do. So I'm back!

Let's recap my last what 2 years? My last entry was about me just starting to be with Dustin. That's a whole year and a half relationship I could write 4 books on alone. Drama, love, heartbreak. Such a soap opera! But anyway, in a nutshell, he was my first boyfriend, my first love, my first heartbreak. Basically, we were going to be married, and now we're not. Which is the best outcome the way I see it now. But no more Dustin! Woo! And here I am 6 months later, waiting on my husband.

Any major updates in my life since my last post? Yes.

1. Both of my grandfather's died. One of cancer, one of a heartattack.
2. I went on a trip to Italy and Greece on my 21st birthday.
3. I'm going to graduate school for the next 2 years.
4. I got my ESL (English as a Second Language) endorsement and I'm pretty positive I want to teach that when I get a job.
5. I'm almost 85% sure I'm going to the Czech Republic in Spring 2010 for a semester of study abroad.
6. Twilight has come into my life and changed it :)

That's really the big stuff. More later.

Me and Dustin Day!

So Dustin came to town yesterday! YAY! We had a great day. I felt bad though cause he got up at 5:30 and left at 6 and drove and got here around 10. Yeah there was a bunch of plans for him to stay the night here and blah blah but we decided he should just come for the day since it was the first time he was visiting. Well I met him in Ooltewah and got him to follow me home. So I cooked him breakfast which ended up being late brunch because we didn't eat till about 11:45 lol. But anyway we hung out in my room for a while and listened to some music.

Then I took him to the mall for a while. It was insane. Boo. So many people. But it was good cause he met all my close friends except Lauren who wasn't working on the one day I wanted her to! GRR! But Jillian, Ashley and Drew were wrapping gifts today so he met them and Jillian really liked him which made me happy. And then we went and saw Christin for a bit in American Eagle and she loved him. She loved him because he's a big UT fan lol. So we wandered the mall for a bit. I think we walked the whole mall which I haven't done in a very long time. But he was super tired which I hated, so we left and went back home for a while.

So he was like do u have any movies that aren't girly that we could watch lol? So we watched Fever Pitch which is semi girly, but it's no Notebook. Anyway, my mom made him lay on the couch and take a nap lol. He fell asleep for a little while though. So then my dad came home and he met him. Good times lol. I was worried about him meeting my dad just because he's my dad. But I asked them both later and my mom loves him. And my dad said he liked him too. He was like, he's a very nice boy Cortney lol. So I got approval from everybody! Yay!

Oh so then we got ready to go out to eat. And I was super pumped because I got a new long sleeve, red, collared shirt from New York and Co and it was SUPER cute. It was one of those really long shirts and I got a massive belt to go with it. And then I curled my hair, which didn't work very well and I wore my new heels that I got. I felt very Christmasy cause I don't think I own anything red. Anyway we got him a shirt at Expressmen today and he wore that to dinner. It was a robin's egg blue collared shirt. Woah, he looked so hott lol. But i'm pretty sure I cracked up because when I came downstairs in my outfit, he goes, "Bam!" lol i just about died. But we went to Shogun for dinner which was really good but the service was trash. They were SO slow and screwed things up. I was mad because they're usually really good. I took Dustin there because they don't have one of those in Nashville and I wanted him to do something new lol. And then i'm pretty sure we were in the parking lot of Shogun for an hour saying goodbye lol. It just kept getting longer and longer. And my mom was so worried about him driving back so late and all, so she was like, you're gonna stay the night next time even if I have to call your parents lol. But he called me on the way back and he got home in record time somehow. He doesn't drive very fast either though. I don't know, but I know he said he was super awake and wasn't sleepy which was the main thing. But i'm going to see him in 2 weeks! I'm gonna go stay with Kerra again the weekend before school starts back. Yay!

Oh and I forgot to mention that I got all excited and made him HOMEMADE chocolate chip cookies. Not the peel and bake, but homemade yo. I was so pumped because they turned out sooo well. I made some with christmas colored M&M's too. And I got a little basket and put Christmas tissue paper inside and filled up that basket to the brim with cookies. There were probably 20 cookies or more in there, decent sized too. I made them for him as a surprise on the way home! Yay! But then I found out when he got there that Macadamia nut was his fav, but oh well. Next time i'll make those. Ok talked too long, gotta go.

First Boyfriend!

So it's been a while, but this is probably one of the most important posts i'll ever do in my life. I also am gonna make it pretty detailed just because I wanna remember everything when i'm old lol. So anyway, I have a boyfriend after 19 years. Dustin is Kerra's cousin who is absolutely AMAZING. Kerra is one of my magnificently good friends from school and she decided that me and Dustin would be perfect together one day and she was correct.

So anyway heres the backstory. Me and Kerra were talking about boys one day and she randomly goes, "Cortney! You'd be perfect for my cousin!" And I was like what? umm...okay lol. She told me some stuff about him and we talked a bit and that was kind of the end of it. I didn't really think anything else much about it till a few weeks later when she called me and said that she had talked to him about me. So she sent him my myspace and he was like wow, she's hott lol. And he told her to give me his number so I could call him if I wanted. So yeah we started talking on myspace a bit and then one wednesday night me and Kerra were having dinner at school and she called him to tell him something i forgot what. So then she goes, "So u wanna talk to Cortney? She's right here." And Kerra said he goes, "Umm, yeah, um, sure, if thats okay with you." Apparently he said it REAL nervous lol. So I talked to him for a few minutes and he was great! He was very talkative which was good. Well Jillian said my face was bright red when I came back to the table after the convo lol. So then he called me the next day while I was babysitting and we talked for a few hours on the phone about EVERYTHING. And then he called me everyday and we sat on the phone for hours. So then I had planned to go home with Kerra one weekend and meet him. Well it ended up being this past weekend. We had an AMAZING time. I could not have asked for a better weekend.

So Saturday morning I went and got my hair highlighted and my nails done the day before and bought a 40$ shirt I didnt need lol. So I went and met Kerra at her apartment and we headed off to Hendersonville, real close to Nashville. And by this time, I have talked to Dustin on the phone about 3-5 times a day. So we pretty much are dating before we even meet lol. But we get there and hang out a while at her house. I'm pretty sure the thought of food sounded good cause I was starving, but also made me wanna puke because I was SO nervous. I was anxious the entire day. So I got ready like super early cause I had a lot to do. I brought my set of rollers to curl my hair and all my make up and stuff. So I wore my awesome new striped blue button up shirt and jeans with my white flats, which was somewhat stupid because it was freezing outside and I wore no socks, haha oh well. So me, Kerra and her sister Lindsay went to Dustin's work to pick him up since Kerra was driving us all night. Dustin works at a nursing home, isn't that adorable?

Anyway we get there and we don't see him because it's black outside and then they both see him and I still don't and i'm like what? Where is he? He's the main reason I'm here and I don't even see him lol. So then I finally see him and he looks SO good. He had on a black button up shirt, jeans and a leatherish looking jacket. He looked very nice. So Kerra and Lindsay gave him a big hug and then I hugged him last. He SMELLED SO GOOD. Omword I told him that all weekend lol. So we head to downtown Nashville for dinner to the Spaghetti Factory and we're sitting there trying to make conversation and I can tell he's nervous because he's not even looking at me when he's speaking lol. I'll admit it was somewhat awkward cause we didn't really know what to say, but it went well. So we get downtown and we start walking to the restaurant and I can tell he's trying to find reasons to touch me because he asks to see my class ring and our phone conversations consisted of me telling him how cold I was so he grabbed my hand and was like yeah, you really are cold lol. It was cute. So we have an hour wait to eat and we can't all stand together really, so me and Dustin stand there talking and Kerra and Lindsay take the 2 seats and we switch a bit later. So he was looking at my purse and I let him go through it just because we were bored and I was looking for a conversation catcher lol. He got a kick out of my keys with the mase on them. The set of keys is more like a weapon because it's so heavy so he liked that lol.

And then we get seated for dinner and we all try to make conversation the entire time. I was somewhat not in the mood to eat/grossed out by the thought of food/starving/anxious and nervous as crap/didn't want bad breathe and didn't want to spill food on my shirt. I was all of the previous things lol. So dinner ends and we leave and I grab onto his arm as we walk to the car cause there are some SUPER sketchy people in downtown Nashville I must say. There are SO many homeless people begging as you walk by. I've never seen that many ever. Kerra, Lindsay and Dustin all just ignored them and I was kinda like well we can't just act like they don't exist but we did. I felt really bad. But anyway I was on his arm most of the night lol. He walked me to the car door too. Punto por Dustin.

So we leave and head to Opryland Hotel to see the decorations. They were beautiful! If you've never been to the hotel, you need to go PRONTO. It's HUGE and decorated with every kind of decoration ever made. So me and Dustin wandered our way around. It was really hot inside and crowded though. It wasn't as great as I thought. But I held onto his arm the whole time so I wouldn't lose him in all the people and then there were some times when we couldn't walk side by side because of the crowd so he'd put his hand behind his back and i'd take it and he'd lead me. It was so sweet. So then it took us 10 mins to find where we were in the beginning to meet Kerra and Lindsay. So I called her and they were gonna be a few more minutes so we found a coach and sat together and flirted a good bit lol. Ohh it was pretty funny because I had sent him a picture message earlier in the week of me and he loved it and made my pic his background so I saw that on his phone lol. And then I let him choose a ringtone for himself when he calls and he picked, "This Magic Moment" by the Drifters lol. It's really cute. So whenever he calls I know it's him. So on the way back we're holding hands in the backseat and he keeps staring at me. I can see him out of the corner of my eye, he is blatantly looking at me lol. Well this amazing cd is playing that Kerra had burned. It was all acoustic/love songs and this awesome song comes on by Adrinna Thorpe called "Did You Think" and I asked him if that could be our song because I had mentioned before that it would be somewhat hard for us to have a song. So he said yes. Yall should download it. It's awesome.

So then we left and headed back to his work. Well on the way to eat, I saw this beautiful place in Hendersonville that was covered in lights. You could not believe how beautiful it was. Well I mentioned that to Dustin and he was like okay we'll go there and gave me this look lol. Well we went there and I gave him his Christmas gift (yes we did gifts). He forgot mine at his house lol. So I gave him a Tennessee sweatshirt cause he's a major TN fan. So I think he liked it. So we parked the car and looked at all the lights and then suddenly the lights went out! You should have seen my face cause I was so disappointed lol. It was completely black. Well he had said on the phone earlier that he was gonna ask to kiss me whenever he planned to do it. So he was looking at me and asked me if he could kiss me and obviously I said yes. So we sat there about 5 minutes and kissed and then his dad called lol. It was so funny. It was like midnight and he was like where are you? And he told him that he'd be home in 25 minutes max. Well we had a mini makeout session and we didnt leave for about 25 minutes lol. But he kept putting his hands on my hair and face. It was great. So he takes me home and I tell Kerra all about it and then we go to bed. Well I kept smelling his cologne all night which was fabulous but I didnt know why because I wasn't wearing anything I had worn on the date. Well I woke up and realized my hair smelled like him because ya know hair holds scent. My hair was in a ponytail so I smelled it all night lol.

But ladies let me just tell you about this amazing man. He's gonna be a special education teacher. He's 20. He's a Church of Christ Christian. He's a virgin and has never fooled around. He's had 1 girlfriend that treated him like trash. He tells me just about every day the reasons why he likes me. He'll sit there and go, so I like you alot and he'll say let me tell you why. The he names off reasons. He's unbelievably awesome. I could not ask for more in a guy. And what's crazy is that every question I ask him, he answers it just like I would, but he doesn't know my opinion on it beforehand, so those are his real answers. We match so well it's scary.

So anyway he ends up coming over sunday afternoon while Kerra and her sister go to the Christmas parade. We sit and watch the Notebook!!! No I'm not kidding! He said before he'd watch it with me just because I wanted to. Well we didn't watch much of it, if ya know what I mean lol. Oh and he gave me my Christmas gift, which was jewelry. Very cute. And we were laying on the couch and he asked me to be his girlfriend! Yes folks I'm no longer single. Its great and well worth the wait.

So then he leaves a few hours later and me and Kerra hang out a bit. He had a Michael W Smith concert to go to, but we ended up going to over to Kerra's roommates' house cause she was bored and so were we. Well Dustin lives literally across the street from her, so he came over and we all watched Elf together. Well I met him outside in the dark and we kinda stayed outside and picked at one another and made out for about 20 minutes lol. Then we went in and watched the movie and then we kinda snuck away and made out some more. It was pretty flippin awesome I must say. Well then we finally left.

Monday me and Kerra packed up and met Dustin for lunch before we left. Well we're somewhat discreet about our goodbye because we were out in public and he kinda didn't kiss me for a long period of time because of people watching. Well I told him he better kiss me longer than that since I was leaving and he did, well right when he did an old couple walked by us lol. It was pretty funny. So then we came home. AMAZING weekend I must say. It could not have been better. Well hes coming to visit next week! YAY!

So yeah I definitely didn't get a chance to update while I babysat last week. Sorry guys. Not too much going on right now though other than me having no time to breathe. I will thank Jesus once this semester is over. Its so much.

Oh so the biggest thing going on right now is that I found out I can take a trip in April for 5 days to Kentucky, Pennsylvania and Washington DC and this trip takes the place of a class I have to take before I graduate! yay! We'll go to each state and do different stuff. Well apparently this trip counts for 2 classes, but i dont have to have the other one anymore. And the other class is American Architecture, which is why were going to DC and Pennsylvania has to do with the Amish. Im not sure why Kentucky though. I know PA's Amish deals with the class im going for, something about family and community. Dunno. I just know it'll be great. Lauren's gonna go too! yay!

Oh yeah and this sorority isn't pleasing me too much right now. We're gonna have to reconsider this whole thing after next semester. If its no better after im a sister, Cortney might be leaving. Boo.

Too busy to breathe

Goodness, I never thought I would want more time. Im usually the boredest person in the world, lookin for things to do. Not now. I have too many things to do. I now have my 4th family to babysit for EVERY tuesday. Yes, EVERY tuesday. Its only suppose to be from about 6:30-8:30 but still. I went this past tuesday and i felt like trash since id gone to school all day. Boo. It was a long day. But there are 2 kids for this family though lol. They played well together though and with me. So it was good. And she told me she's gonna refer me to some of her friends. Im going to die. But there moving to Nevada in December, so i wont have that family anymore cause they'll be moving obviously.

Ahh and im rushing a service sorority with Jillian. Alpha Pi Omega I think. I had to stay after my 7:30 class last night till 9 for the meeting. Boo. It was an EXTRA long day cause i despise wednesdays anyway cause im at work from 12-3 and then class 3:25-7:30. And that meeting just added to it. Ahhhh. But it should be fun. But I have to go back tonight at 8 for a 5-10 minutes interview, wearing my sunday best. Grr. I hate getting home at like 3:30 and then leaving again at 7:30. Its just a waste of gas that I dont wanna use. But yeah i've been lacking sleep this week and i decided to skip my statistics class this morning cause i havent missed it yet and he doesnt take roll. I decided to sleep in and what do u know? I woke up the same time i usually do for class. The one day I wanna sleep, i cant. Grr.

Boyd's homecoming is friday!!! YAY!

I met Fonzie!

WOO!!! I met Fonzie on saturday at the mall!!! Well his name is Henry Winkler if u didnt know, but everyone knows him as Fonzie lol.

So I asked Jillian to come with me and of course she did (shes great lol) and we met and had lunch. We then ran into Megan Humble haha I thought she was there for him too but just for lunch lol. But yeah we walked around for a while and then we went to where the stage is and had to stand cause there werent many seats and they were all full already. So then he came out wearing a little suit and a pink tie!!! And Jillian goes, aww hes so small lol. Hes very little if u didnt know, cause i didnt lol. And he spoke for a while about his life and all this stuff like, u can do it, dont let any one tell u u wont be anything yada yada. It was good though.

Well then afterwards I didnt think he'd stay for pics or anything cause he said he had to go. Well we went into a store and come out and everyone is practically mobbing him. So i decided to squeeze myself in and get an autograph lol. People were just holding stuff up to him so thats what I did. It says, Enjoy - Henry. Haha its cute.

I wanted him to say "Heyy!!!" like Fonzie, but he never did :(. But he did talk like him a few times, it made me laugh lol. Fonzie is much more Yankee New Yorker though than Henry really is. You could hear the change in his voice and it was distinct. But yeah, fun stuff lol. 2 famous people in 1 week!!! What a record!